Selfie Challenge: Eight Fears.

I was so dog tired last night and didn't get a chance to post. Bummer. So here it is a day late...

I couldn't help but laugh and want to take a photo of this moment. We were both squeezed onto our couch. I told Levi that I felt like one of those mountain climbers who fall asleep on a small platform on the edge of a cliff, while locked into their climbing ropes and his arms were those ropes. I just wanted to laugh the entire time. 

His arms are the ropes that bring a reassurance of safety to my life but allow me to climb freely. I love him for that. 

EIGHT FEARS::

1. I HATE Japanese/June Beetles. And because I hate them so much I fear them getting near me.

2. Levi passing away before we grow old.

3. Not being able to get pregnant.

4. My Dad passing away before I have a baby.

5. Dying in a horrific way.

6. Losing one of my nephews or nieces. 

7. My Meniere's Disease getting worse.

8. Not being a good parent.

Selfie Challenge: Nine Loves

I was pretty stoked about my new shoes today. 

A selfie AND pic of my shoes: SUCCESS!

NINE LOVES::

1. My sweetheart, Levi.

2. My nephews, nieces & family.

3. Pizza, especially Pi Pizzeria or Filippi's.

4. Pandas!!!

5. The beach!

6. Kihei, Hawaii

7. Jesus Christ

8. Living in San Diego

9. Photography

Two Challenges in One!

SELFIE CHALLENGE: DAY 1:: One of my good friends nominated me for the ten day Selfie Challenge. TEN WHOLE DAYS!?! Dude, that's a lot of photos of me...I'm pretty sure several friends will get tired of my face. I'd totally understand. I'd get tired of taking my picture and posting it to Facebook, so I plan on spreading the wealth. Today starts day 1 of 10.

I'm just chilling at home while Levi is at school. I'm a little tired tonight and oh so cold! It's 8:55pm and I'm definitely ready for bed. Several colleagues are sick and I HOPE I'm not in line to catch whatever is making the rounds at the firm. 

By the way, I love my hair here in this photo. 

TEN SECRETS::

1. Sometimes I hog the covers on purpose cause it's freezing in the morning and Levi doesn't get as cold as I do. I only bring this up because someone was grumpy that someone else was really warm this morning. Oops.

2. I cuss in bad traffic.

3. I'm shy and would rather keep to myself 80% of the time. I don't like talking sometimes.

4. I hate small talk. Let's just be real and say what we want to say and ask.

5. I would love to buzz my head again. I get tired of doing my hair. I like my face a lot more without all my big curly hair overshadowing it.

6. I almost cancelled my first date with my husband because I was EXTREMELY nervous!! My heart never beat as fast as it did while waiting for him to arrive. My stomach was filled to the brim with butterflies!! I kept asking him if he was nervous when we talked on his way to pick me up. He wasn't at all, which made me more nervous and calm at the same time. 

7. I wish I had at least one friend in my ward (church congregation). This makes it so hard to attend church. Sometimes I go just so I can sing the hymns. That's my favorite part of church and has kept me active, at times.

8. Sometimes I wonder what kind of drunk I would be. I've never had an alcoholic beverage, don't plan on it either. I just wonder if I'd be a funny drunk. Levi likes to impersonate me as an emotional drunk. I feel like he'd be right.

9. I don't think I voted in 2012.

10. I scare easily!! Seriously, I jump when Levi comes into the kitchen, it's ridiculous! He's not even trying to scare me too! But I love to scare people.

A little reminder for the week...

Day 4.

I've never been this exhausted before. I am physically, mentally and emotionally spent. I just want to go home and sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. I want to sleep on my perfectly comfortable bed. I want to see my husband for more than 2 hours. I just want to sleep and feel like a human again. 

Just seeing my husband and being able to speak in complete sentences, at a normal volume, was so great. Plus, to be able to laugh and be funny was even better. I miss being able to just communicate like that with another person. I miss laughter. It was nice to decompress for a very short moment, last night. 

I just want to go home and sit on my couch with bare feet. I miss the peace of my home and the gentleness of Levi's voice. I feel like half of my heart is missing from my chest. I feel incomplete without him by my side. Going to sleep on my massage table is hard, for so many reasons, but not having him by my side is the hardest.  

I'm doing what I'm doing because I love my Dad. I know he would do the same if the roles were reversed. He's been thanking me profusely since I arrived Friday night. I know he's grateful. Last night, he thanked me for my service. That means a lot to me, coming from the person who always taught me about service, by example.

Things I miss today.

My bed.

Sleep.

My Levi.

My shower & face scrub.

Sleep.

Sleeping on my bed.

Sleeping on my bed with Levi.

Sleep.

Levi.

Chopped.

For a while now, I've been wanting to do this...

But man, do you need to be committed from the very minute you sit in that chair! Cause it gets chopped rather quickly!

And it's best to watch your stylist as she goes or it can be a VERY shocking surprise!

What's funny is that about a month before, I was in that very chair getting

 a trim. (Hours before my work Christmas party)

  

And I must say that I am LOVING this new do!

It's pretty much what I wanted. I love the top and how the front is a little longer. I just wish the sides and back were a little shorter.

A lot of the ladies from work have been commenting on my hair all week. (I cut it on my way home from work, Friday evening.) Many have asked how my husband likes it. I'm glad he has no qualms about it and lets me be me. Several have asked how I like it and I just love the pure ease of it!! In the mornings I can wash my face, brush my teeth and do my hair at the sink in under five minutes! What's not to love!? It's great! And even if I didn't like it, it's only hair....it grows back. :) Luckily, I'm enjoying it and have had many compliments that I can "pull it off really well." I like that! Why didn't I do this sooner!? Do I miss my long, curly hair? Nope, not one bit.

Thursday, aka Sushi Day!

Happy Birthday to my Best Man!

Today is my sweetheart's birthday.

I'll never be able to adequately express everything in my heart for this gentle soul of a man. I'm so lucky that I get to be the one by his side for the rest of our lives.  Last night, as we were winding down I told him the three things I love the most about him.
I love how patient he is.  He is the most patient human being I have ever come across.  Luckily, I am the recipient of all of that patience. :) If you had to measure his patience, it would be about the same amount of grains of sand.  Seriously.
I love how hard of a worker he is.  He is dedicated and always strives for the best.  I told him that our children will have such a fine example to follow.  [not a baby announcement] I admire the way he works so hard in school and all things.  Some people just do enough to get by, but he does more than expected or asked for.  
I love how his love is unconditional.  I'm just so incredibly lucky.  Watching him with my family on New Year's day was wonderful.  He has such a genuine love for them that I can see it reflected in the way my family accepts him and treats him.  It makes me  so lucky that I'm never put in a situation of choosing him over them or vice versa.  Plus the fact that he takes the time to patiently listen to my parents and converse with them on their interests just makes my heart swell.  He always does his best to genuinely take interest in each of my family members.  He's such a good guy.  I'll never know what I did to get this lucky!  But I hope I never forget it for a second.  Ever.  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEVI!!

Hurry home so we can go on more celebratory birthday adventures tonight!