Today's homework partner:

I got about 5 hours of sleep this morning.  And now I'm TERRIBLY SLEEPY with an hour of homework ahead of me.  I just got off the phone with my class partner.  I had to hang up with him because I could feel my 'shortness' coming on and my patience QUICKLY depleting.  I'm the worst grouch when I'm sleepy. I have no patient and filter on my mouth.  I'm basically a b!tch.  It's not my most favorite trait, but when I feel it coming on I HAVE to get away from people. I'm like the Hulk...it's not a pretty sight.  Then I end up feeling horrible afterwards.  UGH!!

5 for FIVE:

Reasons #1 & 2:

HOT & HOT!!! 

The Rock looked AMAZINGLY HOT with all of his muscles and deliciousness!! 

Vin Diesel...Smooth, just SMOOOTH!!  His voice, his sly looks...EVERYTHING about him is just HOT!!

Reason #3:

I want to see the Cristo Redentor and take a picture with it.  I'd also like to see the view from this hilltop.  Brasil would be beautiful to check out, as well as fun during Carnival. 

Reason #4:

THE CARS!!! 

I've always loved watching the cars, the races and chases!! I always feel the need for speed after watching Fast/Furious movies!!  

(Dom Torreto: "I'm a boy who appreciates a good body, regardless of the make.")

Reason #5:

Vin Diesel/"Dominic Torreto"...STILL. SO. DAMN. HOT.!!  He's just so manly!!  That glare...those muscles....that voice...the way he handles a car--it gets me EVERY time!!!

Other than that....

Mr. Red: I've tried not to think about him.  I've tried to keep him at the furthest part of my mind.  That's the only way I wouldn't let the thought of him consume my every thought & worry for the next several months.  This week, that wasn't so easy.  On Sunday, as I was sitting next to Em, we were talking about Lincoln.  Then she brought up how "Oh, "Mr.Red" is WAAAAAAY better than him!! At least "Mr.Red" looks good when he's concentrating! "Lincoln" just looks mean! Besides, where is he??".  UGH!! I didn't need that.  SUUUUUUCK!! Then that's all I could think about during the rest of church.  I thought about his red tie.  I thought about the way he would comment in class and how smart he is. I thought about him.  Great... I was doing so well for the last month and now this?!? 

I went to the beach the other day.  As I was walking over to my favorite spot, I passed by his place.  Thoughts of him flooded my mind again.  I remembered the last time we watched a movie at his place.... The Saturday night conversation when I told him EVERYTHING....or the Tuesday night walk about when he shared more about himself.  GAAAAH!!! I didn't want to think about him at all, and now here he was in my thoughts this week.  I miss my friend.  

Montana: Super nice guy, who's such a man & does manly things! I don't know where we stand right now.  I don't want to crush his heart.  I'm just not feeling it.  He's already called me his 'girlfriend' to his family and they're looking forward to meeting me at his sister's wedding in about a month.  I don't want to go anymore.  I don't want to be fake and pretend or force feelings for someone I have no interest in, anymore.  He says he likes me A LOT and has feelings towards the L word. I once had feelings like that for him, but he lagged and I just grew away from him.  To be honest, I just see him as a repeat of my ex-fiance.   I don't know exactly what I want to do.  I just can't be the one to dump someone again.   Mama McK asked me if I told him of my goal of BYU-H.  I haven't.  I need to.  

Parents:  I had lunch with them today.  We talked about school. I haven't really  talked to them much in the last couple months.  They know the superficial stuff, but I keep them at a distance with the in-depth stuff.  I have my personal reasons.  Anyways, I was telling them about school and BYU-H.  My Dad didn't react the way I was expecting him to.  He was really supportive, as well as my Mom.  I thought they would have been antagonistic/pessimistic about the whole idea. They gave me some things to think about, but they were very open to the idea.  I told my Dad that I figured I'd focus on graduating from college since I'm not getting married anytime soon.....

Marriage: ...and that's when it became a reality.  I might not be getting married within my parents' lifetime.  Or even at all.  I think I've come to terms with it.  Of course I want to, but I'm not holding my breath on the idea anymore.  I need to and get to focus more on making the most out of MY LIFE.  I won't be sad anymore or think of it as something 'lost'.  I won't think of my life as not being full or happy because I don't have what my most of my friends have (ie: marriage, children).  My life will just be full and happy in a different way, and I'm okay with that.  All will be well.  

OF COURSE I watched it!!

I couldn't help it! I'm a woman and I love weddings....it just goes hand in hand!! Plus I've been excited to see what her dress would look like!! SO BEAUTIFUL!! I loved it!! And I loved the frilly neckline on her sister's dress!! All in all....it was so simply beautiful!! 

Oh Thursday, I LOVE you, as always!!

*I was doing a lil blog surfing from a friend's and came across this lil jem! Probably my new favorite blog!! Check it out, it's so visually appetizing!

*After looking at that blog, it makes me miss having a camera.  I REALLY REALLY miss having a camera.  I need a new one, QUICK!! I can't stand NOT having a camera.  I've been using the camera on my phone--NOT. THE. SAME. DIFFERENCE. !!! :(  

*Also, after looking at that blog, I just want to create, create & CREATE!!!  I want to sew everything under the sun. I want to paint.  I want to put things in frames that I've created.  I'm stoked for the jewelry class I'm gonna take this summer. I just love to create.  

*Today's Thursday...I always LOVE Thursdays!! I get to see my class tonight & work towards my goal.  I also get to play Volleyball with my friends.  LOVE IT!! Tonight I've gotta teach class. I'm a lil nervous.  Well, not really, I just hope it goes well!  It's on "The Family: A Proclamation to the World".  I'm stoked to teach, I love to do it!

*Ok, that's about it.  I'm hungry.  

Tuesdays with Mama McK....BYU-H or Marriage?

I've mentioned Mama McK on my blog before.  She's 1/2 of the AMAZING missionary couple currently serving in our YSA ward and Institute of Religion. She also happens to be the Mom of 2 old friends that use to attend our YSA ward.  Small world, eh?  She's become a wonderful friend, dear confidante and basically a second Mom.  I love her her dearly.  

Tuesdays are usually my long days at Institute. I like to attend the New Testament class, help out with the Lunch forum, attend Mama McK's Book of Mormon class then hang out for an hour before my vocal class.   During my hour break, I will always be found talking with Mama McK.  I enjoy her light heartedness and motherly wisdom, it has been a blessing in my life these last several months.  We have the discussions that would occur between a mother and a daughter.  We talk about life, school, church, dating, friends, marriage, missions...all sorts of life topics. I wish I could spend all of my Tuesdays like that.

Last night as we were talking, we got on the subject of school [BYU-Hawaii] and marriage.  She knows of the goals/dreams I have for my life.  I want to graduate from BYU-Hawaii and I want to be married in the LDS temple.  Right now, I need to focus on one or the other, but I can't really do both. I'm sure I could, but I'm afraid if I got married then I would become a Mom soon after and school would be put on the back burner--for a very long time.   I want both a college education and marriage.  As I look at my friends who are my age, with their husbands AND children, I feel my biological clock ticking away.  I feel a tinge of envy when I see their happiness and their full lives.  I'm not saying that I'm not happy or don't lead a full life.  It's like a kid watching his friends running, jumping and hanging off monkey bars....while I feel like I'm in a stroller, watching from the sidelines.  Sure the "kids" come over and allow me to be a part of their fun, but then I end up back on the sidelines, looking in.  I want to be in on that fun-permanently.  

However, I can't have it both ways right now in life.  I need to focus on one or the other.  I've thought about this a lot since last night....and over the last several weeks.  I've come to the conclusion that I need to make school my highest priority for my life.  I will focus all of my time and attention into that.  It's something I've wanted for a very long time, something I feel incomplete without.  I want to attend BYU-Hawaii so badly, I want to work at the Polynesian Cultural Center and come to appreciate my Polynesian culture.  Not only do I feel an educational void, but also a cultural one as well.  I know I will regret not doing everything in my power to finish my college education, especially at BYU-Hawaii.  I feel like Daniel "Rudy" Ruettiger.  Attending BYU-Hawaii has been my lifelong dream since I was a kid.  I know I may talk about it a lot here on my blog, but I hope you understand how much it means to me.  Even as I type this I'm reminded of my great desire as I look down at my shirt, which happens to be an 'old' BYU-Hawaii shirt....it's actually a "Church College of Hawaii" shirt that my ex gave to my Dad.  I swiped it from my Dad and figured I'd keep it as a reminder of my goal--thanks Dad. :)

BYU-H/Church College of Hawaii means a lot to me because of the ties my family has had to it.  My maternal grandparents use to be 'dorm parents' back in the day, when it was called "CCH".  I believe my Mom attended it for a bit and has an old CCH pin that I've always dreamt of wearing when I graduate from there.  My dad, while on his Labor mission for the church, helped build the Polynesian Culture Center.  My parents have many fond memories from there and I always hoped of having my own cherished memories from there as well.  

Soon enough Ehu, soon enough..... 

SO. DANG. TIRED.

Oh man, my body is begging me to go to sleep.  I got about 4 hours of sleep last night.  But it was in 2 hour intervals.  With a terribly throbbing toothache as an intermission.  Toothaches & earaches are the WORST!!!!  Those will always bring you to your knees in pain!! 


Institute lunch went very well!! I'm so glad that everyone liked the Saimin and Pani popo.  I couldn't have been more grateful for kind friends and the opportunity to serve them. 


Well, I'm extremely tired.  I have a new found appreciation for Mama McK and all the meals she makes for Institute.  That woman is amazing and heaven sent. I couldn't be anymore grateful to have her as a dear friend and second Mom.  


Good night.

Black jelly beans = Good

Black Licorice = NOT good. 
I like Easter and having nephews & nieces...I get to eat their black jelly beans.  
Although, I do like the REGULAR jelly beans...no fancy schmancy stuff here! No thanks!

Em & I did a pretty good job on our song. It didn't sound as perfect as I would have preferred, but we did our best.  Sister D, who I've always been [musically] terrified of, gave me the biggest compliment and reassurance.  I couldn't have been more grateful!! My lil music heart is so full!

Last night, I made Pani popo:

Basically, you bake rolls in sweet Coconut milk/cream.  It tastes wonderfully DELICIOUS!! I ate about 6 of them. Then ate about 3 more this morning.  I'll be making them for Institute lunch tomorrow.  I hope to only eat 2.  Maybe...  We'll see.   The spirit is willing but the flesh is oh so weak.....

I went to Seafood City with Mama McK today.  She's from Idaho.  Seafood City is a VERY Asian market, unlike anything she's EVER been to.  It was a very fun experience!! I loved showing her around.  I'm excited to make Saimin for tomorrow's lunch:

I hope my classmates like it. Oh well....we'll see!  If not, I'm sure I'll win 'em over with the Pani popo! :)

S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y NIGHT!!

First things first--

CONGRATULATIONS to STEPHYPOOH & her family.... she gave birth to such a CUTE baby girl!!  If ever I thought something/someone was 'cute as a button', this baby would certainly be it!!!  She's so darling cute!! I want one!!

So a new semester has started.... I'm SO excited!! It's so awesome!! I'm looking forward to meeting so many new people!!!  I'm doing it online with BYU-Idaho.  The cool thing this semester is that it's now opened up to other online students across the U.S. .  It's great reading responses from others who are striving to gain a higher education and also happen to have the same/similar religious beliefs.  It's awesome! I'm so stoked!!!  You have no idea!!

My friend Em & I are singing in church tomorrow.  I perfectly at ease with the song, which makes me nervous because I should feel some nervousness about it, right?  I mean, it's an easy song....which makes me feel nervous because I don't feel nervous.  Does that even make sense?  I hope something lame doesn't happen to me, like my voice cracking or something.  

The part of me that IS nervous is the fact that I'll be playing the organ in front of one of the sisters from the stake that is plays it so perfectly.  I ALWAYS get nervous playing the organ/piano or even singing in front of her....which isn't good since she's our accompanist tomorrow.  AAAAHHHHHH!!

So I guess I am nervous after all.  

I'm glad it's Easter tomorrow.  I need to remember the reason for the season.

p.s. I'm in love with Spinach, Red Beets, & Mushroom salads!!! (with Ranch dressing) Oh man, I LOVE Souplantation!!  

Pink, pink...and brown.

HAPPY THURSDAY!!!

(always my favorite day!!)

I'm wearing a deep pink top, with a deep pink scarf and brown pants, with my brown slippers. This is a lot of pink.  I'm almost grossed out by it.  WAAAAAAY too much pink.  I have a love/hate relationship with it.  


Tonight's the start of the new semester. I'm really stoked about it!!  I love my classmates! Especially Brad & Justin! They make the classes worth it and we always end up in a group together.  I'm grateful for them, their intelligence, testimonies, maturity & sense of humor!! 


I'm thinking I want to devote my time & attention to just school and making sure I do my very best in this next semester. I think I want to focus LESS on dating & guys. I'm just not sure about all of it--guy wise.  I don't know.  I don't feel SURE about it.  When I don't feel sure or easy about it, something sparks me as not being good.  I'm not fearful, I can already see the outcome of the current dating relationship I'm in. I feel like I'm settling. Not good.  Like I'm cheating MYSELF.  I'm not being honest with myself and with a great guy who deserves a woman who wants him 100% and wants him for a long time.  I deserve a man who wants me for eternity, so I can't settle. 

Ok, I've gotta go to class. 

4/20 BABY!!!

Today is my very dear & best friend's birthday!!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHYPOOH!!!

She is an amazing friend! So thoughtful and caring! I couldn't have asked for a better friend and missionary companion!! 
I love her dearly!! I'm stoked at the arrival of her newest baby!! I can't wait to see & meet her new lil family!!

Other than that.... I made the BEST Egg, Sausage & Cheese Strata (Quiche?) tonight for dinner. I was in the mood for breakfast for dinner.  Also made Cheesy potatoes & Strawberry pancakes [made with cake mix, so they were more like crepes]!! Oh man, it was all very very DELICIOUS!!!!  I'm not gonna lie... I had 3 helpings of the Egg strata!!!  I ate like it was Thanksgiving.


Can I say I was celebrating my best friend's birthday and eating for two?

Or I guess three, since she's pregnant.


:)

Poor Monday, no one likes you...

• I forgot how much I LOVE Natalie Dee comics, until I posted my blog title for today. 
• It's gonna be a Randi posting...
• The Hispanic Stake choir did an AMAZING job yesterday!!! I'm so proud of all of our hard work!! I love Hermana R.-she does such an awesome job at being a music director & teacher! She gives me vocal lessons on Tuesday afternoons. Usually I'm scared and terrified to sing in front of her, because she's a professor of music at Utah Valley University and sings with the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.  So she's pretty legit! I'm glad I've met her, she's taught me so much about music & singing.  
• I love having my short hair.....almost thinking of keeping it this short for a while! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!
• It was a pretty interesting weekend.  I've had a lot to think about, a lot to process and become comfortable with.  I'm not the biggest fan of change, unless I'm the one who creates it.  I'm trying to see how I like the feel of a certain 'title'.  Am I there yet? Is it bad that I'm not exactly comfortable with it just yet? I just haven't been at this point for several years.  It's a definite change.... ugh....decisions decisions! My feelings haven't changed for a certain someone, I just don't know how I feel about a title, yet.
• School's back in session. That's barely been a week!! What the heck?!!? Oh well, I'm stoked for these new classes. 
• My goal for this next semester of school: Stay on top of EVERYTHING and get 100% in my classes!! I can do it!! I get to do it! :) BYU-HAWAII OR BUST!!!
• Hung out with my sister in Downtown San Diego.  Gosh I LOVE living here in San Diego!!!  I would never want to live anywhere else. I feel SPOILED that I can live in such a diverse, beautiful and chillax city!!! 

Me: June 4th.

I'm excited to be Montana's wedding date!

Not really excited to meet his family.

But I get to dress up, so that's fun enough!

Appreciation.

Today, this very moment, my heart is so full.
I just got an email from the missionary couple that's in charge the of BYU-Idaho Pathways Program here in San Diego:

"Congratulations Ehu, You Aced the final exam, receiving an A grade!.  We are very proud of you. "


Tears well up in my eyes.  I can't believe it!  I can't believe that I did that!  It just makes me think that I'm one step closer to my dream of BYU-Hawaii.  I couldn't have gotten through this semester without the help, encouragement & support of loved ones!  Most especially without the persistence of Papa McK!! If he wouldn't have kept suggesting, steering and basically sitting me down to register for the Pathways program, my BYU-Hawaii dream wouldn't be looking like a reality right now. My heart is full of gratitude for him, Mama McK and everyone who's helped me get to this point thus far.  


I also received an email from my Academic Advisor:


"I know that getting your education hasn’t been easy – the most important things in life never are. You are working towards a goal that will impact you and your family for generations to come. Don’t give up, just keep moving forward one day at a time and we will get there."


I love the encouragement and support that I've also received from those at BYU-Idaho.  It has been such a blessing!!  


BYU-Hawaii, I WILL see you soon!! I KNOW it!!

Yo quiero!!

As I was driving home from Volleyball tonight, Mana started playing...

Then it got me thinking of how much I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have a fiesta for my birthday!

I'd love to have Papel picados hang about with a pinata, of course!

We'd eat Carnitas tacos, rice & beans (the 3 Mexican things I CAN cook with ease!)

And we'd have Pineapple Upside Down cake for dessert...I love cooking for those I love!

This is what I'd wear and look like:

(in dress form, because I think it's more fun to wear a dress on your birthday)

Mana, La Quinta Estacion, Juanes, Shakira, Julieta Venegas, Alejandro Fernandez would play from my iPod...

...and we'd all sit around and talk under the light of:

And to end the night: 

Wouldn't that be the BEST summer birthday party/fiesta ever?!

I know it would! :)

HeeBeeGeeBees!

A friend scanned some old photos from about 10 years ago...

It's crazy how fast time flies!

I miss this group of friends.

I'm grateful they were a part of my life. 

I look forward to seeing them all again, soon!

HAPPY THURSDAY!! ♥

Scary Movie = Good Times

Went to see Insidious with some friends and Captain.

My gosh that man is just devastatingly handsome!! 

Such soft soft skin....and a body that does not need to drink milk! 

I'm so glad we're friends.

:)

p.s. GREAT scary movie.  LOVED IT!!

Empathy.

I have a dear friend who I haven't seen for a couple years, but means so much to me. This past weekend, "Dixie" lost his brother in a terrible accident. I can't stop thinking about it. I just want to give my friend a warm embrace and hold him until the pain goes away. I wish I could tell him that "everything's going to be alright". Of course nothing's going to be the same anymore. I can't stop thinking about how he lost his brother at such a young age and more than just that....how his daughter will now grow up without a father. I just feel so much sadness for my friend. It makes me sad because they're both so young and there's so much more life ahead. He's even been to war in Afghan but yet he dies in an accident while working?! How does that happen!? It makes me weep for my friend, his family and all those that knew Dixie's brother. Milestones that will never be had and celebrations that will never be shared.

Life is short. Never let a day go by without expressing your love to those you care about.

I [heart] San Diego!!...and Montana dates!

Went out with Montana today....had so much fun!!

We went to eat at The Original Pancake House--where I was an IDIOT and ordered waffles.

(Don't EVER do that!! Their waffles were as good as Eggo waffles!! Me=IDIOT!!)

Then we went to hang out at the Old Point Loma Lighthouse & Cabrillo National Monument!

He's never been there before, so it was fun to share that with him. I had so much fun with him. We talked for a couple hours as we looked out over San Diego. I loved being there with him. He even climbed down a hill to get me the flower above. It was different than the rest of the flowers and I really wanted it. He's so kind like that! :)

All in all....such a WONDERFUL day!!

♥

The blessing of music and singing.

Yep, I'm still up. I don' t sleep the normal hours. I should...especially tonight since I have finals later today.

Anyways, I'm listening to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir sing "I Know That My Redeemer Lives" to help prepare me for our upcoming Stake Conference. I'm really excited for it!! I always love to sing. In the last several years, it's been the only reason I attended church sometimes. Singing in our Stake choir was always a dream of mine growing up. That dream finally became a reality 2 years ago when the invitation was extended to me. I was elated, and tears still well up in my eyes when I think of this dream come true. Some may think it's silly, but I've listened to some of the most wonderful singers come through there. Such angelic voices! So to be apart of that was phenomenal!

I'm looking forward to this Stake conference because the choir is made up of the Latino members of the stake, as well as some Spanish speakers. I'm not really either of those, but I LOVE to sing in Spanish and I'm glad all my high school and college Spanish classes will be put to use. We'll be singing "I Know That My Redeemer Lives" & "Jesus, Once of Humble Birth" in Spanish. I invited my sister to come sing in the choir because we're always in need of Altos and she's fluent in Spanish. Since I would need someone to translate the director's instructions, I figured I'd sit with my sister.......in the Alto section. Not only will I be singing in Spanish, but in a different vocal range. I'm stoked for the challenge. I always enjoy trying to sing Alto! Luckily for these two hymns, I've got the Alto down pat! I'll do my very best to look up from my choir book, but I'll have my nose pressed to the music sheets!! I'm excited!!!

Next challenge: Not crying or tearing up while singing!! Always an obstacle!!

OBSESSED!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE PAPER LANTERNS!!

It just makes me want to have a party!! It'd be so festive and FUN!!!

I love the simplicity and beauty of these paper lanterns!!

Plus it makes me think of Chinese New Years!

{my favorite holiday}

LOVE LOVE LOVE!!

Recap &....being the "Friends Zone" girl.

-Went out to brunch with Montana and then hung at the beach for a couple hours. It was very relaxing. Great way to spend a Saturday!! We didn't get to spend as much time together as we wanted to, because we both got little sleep the night before. Oh well.... it was still fun.

-I watched 2 talks from General Conference. I'm glad I listened to those two talks. I love Elder Holland & Pres. Monson. I'm listening to some talks as I type this. I can't wait for Conference issue of the Ensign to come out. Although I'm bummed I didn't get to listen to the choir. I do love the music of General Conference. I [heart] LDS.org.

-I can't believe finals are this week. I'm glad....and a lil nervous.

-Went to lunch with my ol' friend Giovanni. Good guy. I'm glad I have such great guy friends. I'm not excited over the fact that I have SO MANY guy friends. Somehow I ALWAYS get thrown into the "Friends Zone" with guys. :( It's a good and bad thing. Sometimes I wonder how that happens. Is it because I have 2 older brothers and 3 nephews that are more like younger brothers to me? Is it because I try not to be so emo and dramatic as some women tend to be? Is it because I try to be laid back, relaxed and use the word "Dude" a lot? Or because I don't look like the typical girly girl my guy friends would want to go out with? Sometimes I wonder that. I mean it's just my daily style. I like to wear slippers, board shorts and hoodies. I don't wear make up every day. I'm more of the relaxed style. No I don't look sloppy and I'm not a "beach bum". Yes I like dressing up from time to time, getting pedicures, wearing make up and all those girly girl things.....but to do it every day, I don't know about that.

Last week, while we were in class, I was sitting with all the guys. I had made a comment and then they realized that I was the only girl in their section. One of my friends said, "Well, I don't think you'd really get along with those girls over there. You're not really like them." What did that mean?? I'm friends with a couple of the girls, but then as I thought about it, I wouldn't really want to hang out with those girls anyways. I don't like talking TOO much about all the girly things. I rather just hang back and joke with the guys instead. Ugh.... this is like a never ending battle. Whatevers....I guess I'll always be "Ehu, the 'Friends Zone' girl". Oh well....

On the BRIGHT side....

I don't like being negative or pessimistic. I try to be optimistic and hopeful. I know I fail at that sometimes.

As I was going thru my FML day today, I couldn't help but notice the lil glimmers of blessings around me:

• I'm grateful for parents who are willing and ready to help me and do whatever they can to help me. I don't notice how giving they are, a lot of the time, and I know that is my downfall. All I have to do is ask and they are ready to jump in and help. They're my parents for this life and the next... Thank God.
• My Sister is also very willing to help and let me know that "WE will get through it"--not "YOU can", but "WE will". That means a lot to me. I couldn't have been more blessed with a sister like her.
• While spending a good portion of the day on the phone, in the sun, I got a tan on my legs and feet. When I got home and took off my slippers, I noticed my new slipper tan. Those are always my favorite! Makes me think of Summer!
• As I was Downtown at the San Diego Police Department, I was fortunate to come across a particular officer who was at the service desk. He was a lil over 6' feet tall, probably half Mexican/Caucasian, buzzed hair, warm honey toned skin, his face was soft without any traces of a blemish, nice strong jaw, lovely pointed nose, a sweet endearing smile and a body that even a swimmer would envy. He was a [very much needed] tall drink of water!! GORGEOUS!! A definite sight for sore eyes. He was handsome and made me smile.
• I thought I was going to have to cancel my weekend plans with Montana, so I called him up. I wasn't too forthcoming with ALL of the details of my FML day, at first, because of the circumstances. I didn't need him worrying and stressing over it as well. He wasn't pleased that I was keeping a secret from him, but to be honest, it was a lil embarrassing to have to tell him what was going on. I could tell that he was genuinely concerned and wanted to help in anyway possible. Once I told him, he reassured me with a similar experience that he's had. He has a very wonderful way of reassuring me and making me feel better. I'm so grateful that I'll still be able to see him tomorrow. I can't wait!
• Got to spend the evening with my sister, nephew and niece. Had a wonderful evening at the park, eating pizza and then taking in a movie ["Limitless"--AWESOME!!]

I know that when life gets dark and dreary, there is still good in the world...

...that there aren't bad days, just bad moments...

...and that God is still mindful of us.

FML Friday.

GRRR!!! I'm pissed and stressed!!!

I don't know how to better describe what I'm feeling. Feeling these extreme emotions, usually kicks my Meniere's outta whack and makes me dizzy and tired. The Diet Coke full of caffeine is a double edge sword. I'm not suppose to drink caffeine [not good for my Meniere's] but I NEED it right now to function because I'm sooooo emotionally drained [aka: sleepy]. So it's a Catch-22. GRRRR!!!!!

And the FML still isn't over. Amidst the CRAZINESS of this very EXPENSIVE lesson, I will now have to deal with Downtown traffic on a Friday.

SHOOT. ME. IN. MY. HEAD.

I had other plans today...I really did.

SSSSSUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!

[I'd rather be saying a different word that rhymes with that one.]

SO GRATEFUL for AWESOME parents and a VERY GIVING sister to come to my rescue.

BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE.