It's 12:46am

I should be sleeping.

I can't sleep.

I packed way too fast and now I'm second guessing myself. Did I REALLY pack EVERYTHING I need??? It's almost too good to be true!

I have so much on my mind. I really do wish my sister and I had the same flight out....that would have really put me at ease. I HATE take off and MOST ESPECIALLY, turbulence.

I can't sleep because I'm so happy, yet so sad to visit my mission. It won't be the same... I would have wished to have gone back with an ol' companion. Two of the most beloved members I have ever met, have both passed away. I always wanted to go back to see them, they meant a lot to me. They were like my adopted mothers. My heart is heavy and my mind is flooded with "coulda, shoulda, woulda" thoughts. It will be nice to go visit New Jersey....but it just won't be the same.

I should really get some sleep. It'll be no fun eating an authentic Philly Cheesesteak if I'm half asleep. :)

Why it pays to be nice to 'wrong number' phone calls....

So today, I had the most interesting phone call.

A 'wrong number' phone call....but very interesting, to say the least.

I was packing my suitcase and my phone started to ring. I didn't recognize the number, but it was a local number so I thought I'd answer it. I hardly ever answer numbers I don't recognize, but figured, 'what did I have to lose?'.

Me: Hellooo?

Him: Hey! What are you doing??

(Thoughts crossed my mind as to who it could be....Doc? Camp? Bubba?? The person on the other end of the phone sounded really nice, as though he knew me.)

Me: [in my most pleasant voice] I think you have the wrong number.

Him: Is this not Michelle?

Me: Nope, sorry.

Him: Haha, oh ok. Sorry about that.

Me: No worries, hope you find her. Bye.

Him: See ya later.

Then I started to think, "Damn, why didn't I just answer his question and go with it, ya know??" He sounded very nice, pleasant and I really wish I stayed talking to this stranger and most welcome distraction.

Next thing I know, I receive a text: "Wow, sexy voice....lol".

WOW, really....from a 16 second phone call?? Hmm, ok...well, it is a compliment after all. I was really flattered, I mean, it was ALL totally unexpected.

So I responded: "I almost wish I kept talking to you. You did sound pretty nice. Gotta say that's the first 'wrong number' where I really didn't mind. Call anytime :) "

AND HE DID!! We talked for about 15 minutes. We traded pictures and he seems like a fun and nice guy. He did make me laugh, so that's a definite plus. He said that his sister gave him 'my' number to call her daughter (his niece). He was a lil confused when the woman on the other end of the phone sounded older and more mature than his niece. We talked about our relationship status, where we live, our jobs and what we're looking for in life (He's divorced and just working a lot, always looking to make new friends, especially those of the opposite sex). I told him, "By the way, just to answer your question from your previous phone call, I'm currently packing for my trip to Philly". He thought that was funny and then sounded a lil disappointed that I wouldn't be back for a week & a half.....

...because he asked me out.

We're just going to Starbucks, so it's not a big deal...but it is pretty random, right?

Wow, gotta say..... I didn't expect my Thursday to turn out like this--95% packed & I scored a date when I get back from Philly.

GO EHU!! :)

Because it's Thursday....

...and this photo makes me laugh & smile:

It makes me laugh because of the way Mr. Red's standing and the fact that I look like such a tool!! (It was the Halloween party at church, a couple nights ago.)

I can't help but smile for so many reasons... {but here's 5 of them}:

1. He looks so ridiculously cute! From the hat to the shiny shoes...I just want to hug him and squeeze him!! [and did because he smells DELICIOUS!!] And honestly, his body looks smokin' hot in it.

2. I asked him to wear this weeks ago and he adamantly fought against it! I just wanted to see him in it. By the grace of God, he finally gave in :) And he wore it...just for me, because he took it off right after and changed into a toga for the party.

3. I love the way he's standing! I have NO idea why he's standing like that...but I seriously laugh every time I notice that!

4. He looks like the Cracker Jack boy--SO adorable!!

5. He had to pee sooooooo badly and he waited til I got there [a half hour late] just so I could see him in it and take photos. Notice the non-zipper fly pants...13 buttons between him and the restroom. I felt TERRIBLE that I was extremely late, but he wasn't annoyed and didn't make me feel bad, at all.

It was a great evening and a very fun night!

Happy Thursday!

Things I should be doing: Packing.

I hate packing.

I'm not the best packer in the world.

I just want to take EVERYTHING I own with me....but I can't.

I like options, or at least the option of a washing machine in case I want to wear something again.

Ugh.....

I hate packing.

Things I remembered this weekend:

-I like to cuddle, seriously, I'm a cuddle whore. I need to touch people and long to be touched. [Don't take that the wrong way.... Eh, take that in whatever way you want, I don't care.]

-I love Camp. Seriously, he always makes a bad day better and a good day great!! He gave me the best compliment yesterday and I will treasure that for a while. And I LOVE LOVE LOVE the way he smells so delicious. I especially LOVE it when he pulls me into his chest during our hugs/vertical cuddle time. I can't wait to see him tonight!!

-I love surfers. Seriously, they're HOT!!

-Kissing's fun...but only if you're kissing someone you have feelings for {and vice versa}. Otherwise, it's pretty much pointless.

-I have the best friends, EVER!

Void.

It's Saturday night....and I have several things on my mind.

Yesterday, I was both happy and sad, at the same time. Odd. I've never quite been like that before. I was happy for little surprises that have come into my life recently. But I was also sad because of certain voids that have occurred in my life recently.

I don't like that feeling. I rather be one or the other...but not both, at the same time. It's like they cancel out each other.

Sometimes, I wonder why I do certain things....

Why do I allow some people into my life?

Why do I trust them?

Why do I allow certain individuals to see a side of me that I would rather keep safe guarded?

Why do I love so deeply?

In the last couple of weeks, I became close to someone. I trusted him so quickly and showed him a part of me that I don't even let close friends see. As scary as it should have been, it wasn't. I allowed myself to feel vulnerable with him and I didn't think twice about it. I loved talking with him because I could freely speak my mind and didn't worry that he would think me to be insensitive, blunt, ridiculous or anything else along those lines. I didn't feel embarrassed about certain things that I should have....it was nice. It was all very comforting.

I miss that. I miss him. Sometimes, life turns out that way.

The 30 day blog challenge:

I'm stoked for this to start tomorrow!