[[Thursday]]

My love of Thursdays & I were on a lil hiatus...  til today.  I was FINALLY happy for it to be Thursday again, it was pleasant.  

I went over to my BFF, Bugs' house and had a lil scrapbookin' session.  For about 6 hours.  SO MUCH FUN!

I feel blessed, I really do.  A couple months ago, I was wonderin' how I was going to get out of a situation, a relationship-type of situation.  I had an 'out' several weeks ago, but I was weak and disregarded it.  I remember thinking a few days afterwards of how stupid I was, I had an 'out' but ignored it and let my happiness suffer.  If I could kick myself, I really would have--several times!    It was something my life desperately needed and my heart truly desired, but I had no idea how to go about in obtaining another 'out' without hurting the guy.  However, I feel like my Heavenly Father stepped in and blessed me with that perfect opportunity.  My favorite Book of Mormon scripture came to mind:

"And Ammon said: Yea, and he looketh down upon all the children of men; and he knows all the thoughts and intents of the heart; for by his hand were they all created from the beginning." {Alma 18:32}

My Heavenly Father knows me.  He knows what I need and when I need it. I'm so grateful He blesses me with the most perfect blessings.  I love Him dearly for it.  

"FWD:" emails can be funny, sometimes.....

1. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.
2. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
3. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text or getting ready.
4. MapQuest really needs to start their directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
5. There is a great need for Sarcasm font.
6. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.
7. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
8. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
9. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.
10. Was learning cursive really necessary?
11. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this ever.
12. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!
13. While driving yesterday I saw a banana peel in the road and instinctively swerved to avoid it....thanks Mario Kart.
14. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.
15. I find it hard to believe there are actually people who get in the shower first and THEN turn on the water.
16. Bad decisions make good stories.
17. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
18. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?
19. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you've made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

Best Friends & Blessings!

I feel like I've been blessed the last couple of days.  

This morning, as I was getting ready for church I started to think of all the blessings I've received in my life.  I feel as though I've been blessed beyond measure.  I love my nephews & niece.  I've been blessed with the best. 

I love my parents, heaven knows how deeply thankful I am for them this week.  Not just this week, but every week  since I was born.  They've ALWAYS got my back.  I'm truly blessed.  

I've got the world's greatest best friends.  No really, I do.  Sorry you may think your's are wonderful, but mine are AWESOME! (ok ok, maybe your's are awesome too, but if you met mine you'd think they were fantastic too)  I've been spending a lot of time with my best friend Bugs since Thursday.  Hanging out with her lately has felt like I was on a vacation.  As weird as that sounds, it truly has.  She helped me clear my head after feeling like my heart crumbled inside my chest this last week.  Friday night we went over to my cousin's house to do some scrapbooking with a friend and had a FANTASTIC night!  SO much fun! Then yesterday (Saturday) her husband took us out to lunch to Phil's BBQ....followed by some scrapbook shopping! SO MUCH FUN!  Later that night Bugs and I went to a wedding reception and hung out afterwards.  Being with her has helped remind me of what matters most, what I've always wanted and what I can achieve in this lifetime and eternity.  

Today I got to talk to one of my FAVORITE companions and best friend StephyPooh. Oh I love her so! It was such a refreshing phone call.  Man, I love her phone calls....constant belly aching laughing!!!  She taught me something new about marriage that I had never heard before, but man, it was VERY enlightening.  

I feel as though my Heavenly Father has blessed me with the very choicest of friends, especially best friends.  I couldn't be any happier.   I feel like I've been blessed 1001% this past week, in the Friend department.  Even though I had a rough week, I've been EXTREMELY blessed and happy since then. 

"And when it rains on your parade, look up rather than down. Without the rain, there would be no rainbow"

'Not so bad' Thursday...

Today started off HORRIBLY! It was RIDICULOUSLY HORRIBLE!! Then it got SADLY WORSE.  

BUT...

It ended on a very happy note and now I'm listening to Frank Sinatra.  

How much better can it get?

Can I just say how truly grateful I am for best friends?! No really, I've got the world's greatest best friend.  She's more like a sister.  She knows me so well.  She knows my heart and always wants the best for me.  Tonight she really cheered me up after showing up to her house in tears. I left feeling 500% better!!  I'm so extremely happy.  I could cry (good cry) I'm so happy.  She said EXACTLY what I needed to hear, not wanted-but NEEDED.  She reminded me of my worth and potential.  She reminded me of all the little things I had forgotten.  I lost focus of what I wanted in an eternal marriage and potential husband.  I can't settle, I know better...I deserve better.  

Man, I owe the most humble prayer of gratitude to my Heavenly Father for another chance to find true happiness in love and to thank Him for giving me the BEST best friend EVER. 

Facebook status wisdom?

"Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change!"

Definitely makes me think a bit....

This is my day...

Today, I'm washing my hands.  I'm finished. I'm done being hurt, lied to and feeling sad.  I will not allow anyone to hurt me, anymore. I thought I could trust a dear, close friend whom I thought I had the deepest of feelings for.  Sadly, I was wrong.  Very wrong.

So to this friend, JBE, have a nice life.  Do NOT call me or contact me in anyway.  You say you love me, but you don't...let's just be honest here.  I've come to realize that you ALWAYS need attention from women.  It's as though you're a womanizer.   I do not trust you anymore.  I'm done thinking I was your "one and only".  I know you were for me, but it doesn't matter.

Today I'm washing my hands, once and for all....

DONE! SO FREAKIN' DONE!

MAN!! Have you ever had one of those days where you just wanted to throw in the towel and escape?!? OH MAN!! TODAY'S THAT DAY FOR ME!! 

I just want to scream!!

I just want to drive and keep driving and drive some more!

I'm just so tired of the BS!

I'm tired of the runaround.  the lies.  the mundane.  the unfortunate crap that is my life this very second!  UGH.  

I just want to take a road trip.  Maybe somewhere far....maybe New Jersey.  

I'm so tired of the "whooshing" sound in my ear.  The last 6 months have been HORRIBLE & TIREDSOME.  I want it to go away.....24/7 CONSTANT.  It impairs my hearing and makes me feel like I'm going freakin'  crazy!  I try to look on the bright side of working at the Temple, but it's hard when it's dead silent and that's ALL I can hear.  GRRR!!!  

Tonight, I just wanna cry.   After a bad day, I just wanted to turn to the one person I thought I could trust.  I've come to find out that it's just a facade.   I hate trusting people, I do, I truly do.   Why can't people be upfront & honest? Really, why not??  I'm done, I'm so freakin' done.

G'nite.