Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
3) I'm DONE Christmas shopping for my family. I started during the summer because I wanted to AVOID the holiday chaos! NO THANK YOU!
Dang, I thought I had something for this....but I think I forgot.
My partner at work will be gone for the next 2 weeks. TWO WEEKS!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Not only will I have my work, but her's as well--which I only had yesterday morning to learn. AHHHHHH!!! Oh well, what doesn't kill me will only make me crazy :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
I miss my best friend. I haven't talked to her for about 6 months. Well actually, I would say more like 9 months. It all started back in January when she was contemplating going on a first date with a guy I'll call "Mr. Irish". The one thing I truly dislike about her is that she tends to drop everyone when she starts dating a guy. We've been through it a couple times before. Trying to get a hold of her is impossible. She's pretty much MIA.
After her whole 'first date fiasco', we didn't talk or hang out for at least 3 weeks. And when we did she wasn't even "there". Her mind was elsewhere the whole time, even though SHE was the one who insisted we hangout-since I sent my exfiance home on an airplane the day before. It was kinda pointless, since I ended up having to listen to her gush mushy lovey dovey stories. Fast forward 3 quiet, best friend-less months to May. After calling and leaving her a message, she surprisingly called me back 5 minutes later. About 30 minutes into our major catch up phone call and almost exhausting every topic under the sun, she finally pipes up to say that she & Mr. Irish are engaged to be married in October. We talked a couple more times that month and the wedding was moved up to August and finally to July. She wanted me to be her Maid of Honor, as well as....
....the Wedding planner...
......sew her wedding dress...
........make her bouquet...
.........make the wedding invitations...
...........and set the songlist.
I had no problem with everything she asked of me, because she was my best friend and I know that she would do exactly the same thing for me in a heartbeat. However, problems started to arise when she wouldn't return my phone calls, IM's or text messages. How was I suppose to help her, if communication was lacking. This went on for several weeks til finally I was able to get a hold of her. Time is of the essence when planning a wedding. I just wanted to accomplish everything we needed in a timely manner. I knew that making the dress alone would take at least a week or two. One Friday evening when we were to get together, she totally bailed. No call--NOTHING. Not cool! I tried to get a hold of her at her Mom's house, where she said she'd be that evening and the Mom knew nothing about it. I finally had it. I was done! How was I suppose to help her if she wasn't willing to communicate with me?! Why pour more time and effort into planning a wedding, when the bride wasn't even helping out?! So I sent her an email just saying that I was done and I didn't appreciate the way was she ditching me & our friendship, since day one of hooking up with Mr. Irish. She never responded to the email and I didn't attend her wedding. We haven’t communicated since.
No, I'm not jealous. I'm happy she finally found someone to marry. I just wish I didn't have to lose a best friend in the process. Now I don't know what to do, because I miss her terribly. I've known her for as long as I can remember. She knows all of my secrets and she’s the closest thing I’ve had as a sister. I miss her family, they're wonderful people. There's so much I wish I could talk to her about. So many changes in my life these last 9 months. I'm sure a lot has changed in her life as well, and I would love to hear about it. I just wish I knew how to go about in being her friend again. Or maybe the ball's in her court? I don't know. All I know is that as the holiday season arrives, I wish I could turn back the hands of time to last year as we hung out at the Hotel Del Coronado. That was a great day. So much fun! I miss it. I miss her.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
What I really wanted to blog about is my company Christmas party. I know, I know...it's not for a while, but it'll be here before you know it! Invitations were passed out yesterday and it's in EXACTLY one month. It'll be in one of the ballrooms at the Marriot, following with a roof top after party. I'm kinda excited for it. Kinda. Either you show up with your friends from work or, as the invite allows, "with one guest". I'd much rather show up with the latter--but I'm dang single. GRR! I mean, I wouldn't even know who I could ask to this. Plus this isn't the most ideal 'first date' situation. GAH! Thank goodness I still have a month...I'll definitely need it.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I think I'll go for random today:
-Dayquil, Orange Juice & water are my new best friends these days. I'd really like to get over this cold soon!
-I'm kinda bummed that I won't be going to SLC for the First Presidency's Christmas devotional. I was really looking forward to it. Hangin' out with one of my ol' mission comps, eating at the Pie pizzeria and doing a session at the SLC temple! How much more awesome could it be?! er, 'could have been'. Oh well, maybe another weekend. :)
-My brother & sister-in-law returned from Savannah, Georgia. My brother thought it would be a nice to get me this:
<----------THIS! This of all things!! How can I, as a true SD Padres & NY Yankees fan, wear THIS?!! Oh well, it's cool. Maybe I'll wear it to work tomorrow...so I don't have to do laundry. Sad, so sad. Or on second thought, I better not. Mr. NY might never talk to me again. Hey, at least it's not a Boston Red Sox jersey. Eh, same difference.
-Tomorrow, they'll be passing out Turkeys at work! I'm kinda surprised as to how much I'm looking forward to it. Odd, I know. Maybe cause that means the Holidays will really be here soon. Other than that, I think it's really cool! I like this company!
-I'm starting my new book, "Peony in Love". I hope it's good! I really loved reading "Marley & Me" and I look forward to the day I own a German Shepherd, named "Dude".
Monday, November 17, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
My eyes are puffy and my heart hurts.
I was feeling extremely nauseous at work during our rush period. I don’t know what the heck I ate but man there was (and still is) a lot of disagreeing going on in my stomach. I got backed up with a lot of rush orders and got spoken to by one of my supervisors. While I was being reprimanded I stood up and walked out in tears. There I was out in the cold crying my eyes out. I let my frustration out thru my tears. It’s ironic though, at work people throw around the concept of us being a “family and helping each other out”. Not much help was being thrown my way as my work was piling up and I was off with a Sprite in hand while bowing down to the porcelain throne. Most days I like what I do. I like those I immediately work with…it’s those that I don’t share a desk with that I didn’t highly favor. It’s funny how ChargersChick throws attitude around the office but once it’s thrown back at her, she reports it to a supervisor. GRR!!
My heart hurts because of all the Mormon hate going around right now. It truly hurts to have such awful, hateful and vengeful things being said about something you hold so dear to your heart. There was a protest in front of the Los Angeles LDS Temple today. It would bring me to tears if such a thing happened in front of my San Diego Temple, thus forcing it to be closed. My heart also hurts because my gay best friend has been denied marital rights. Sometimes I wish Prop.8/22 never resurfaced.
I wish I could just jump into bed, pull the covers over my head and wake up 2 years from now.