I use sarcasm sometimes to tell people how I feel. Most times I use it as a sense of humor. Other times I use it as a defense mechanism. Not so much a "defense" mode, but just as a way not to feel vulnerable. Who likes to feel vulnerable? Not me. But, sometimes being open and vulnerable can be a good thing--if you trust the other person. This is something that I've gotta work on, letting people in. Yes I'm guarded, because I don't want to get hurt. But I think I need to allow myself to loosen up and let the guard down a little. It just may be worth it, soon.... ♥
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Feeling vulnerable.
I use sarcasm sometimes to tell people how I feel. Most times I use it as a sense of humor. Other times I use it as a defense mechanism. Not so much a "defense" mode, but just as a way not to feel vulnerable. Who likes to feel vulnerable? Not me. But, sometimes being open and vulnerable can be a good thing--if you trust the other person. This is something that I've gotta work on, letting people in. Yes I'm guarded, because I don't want to get hurt. But I think I need to allow myself to loosen up and let the guard down a little. It just may be worth it, soon.... ♥
Shuai ge!
Life is good.
I love going to church!
I'm the ward organist again. I LOVE sitting on the stand :)
I got to hang with my two teenage nephews all weekend. So fun and funny!!!
I got to hang with Berkeley this past Saturday. SO MUCH FUN!!! I'll have to post pics soon. I love him dearly...such good times!!
My family just got back from Hawaii. It was starting to get too quiet, but I did love the silence.
My birthday is in 11 days. Not sure of what I want to do...but I feel the pressure to make it a memorable birthday since it's my "DirtyThirty"! If all else fails then I can always go get my "e." tattoo at my friend's shop.
I got early birthday gifts from my family (from Hawaii) and my awesome missionary nephew in Fiji!!
Have I mentioned how much I thoroughly ENJOY church!! :) Seriously, I have a smile the whole time....it's WONDERFUL!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Friday Nite Fun!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Yep, just like the camp....
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Nephews.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Tuesday Quickie!
Alrighty, well I better get home and get started on this DELICIOUS Trifle!!!
**p.s. After posting this--I just received a text message from my mission president. I texted him on Sunday for his birthday. P.Daw was the best! Like I said, an RM will always think of their mission....
Friday, August 6, 2010
Randi meet Friday.....
-Tomorrow is the start of this weekend's US Open Sandcastle Competitions in Imperial Beach!! I'm so stoked!! I can't wait!
-I'm so glad that my nephew, Elder L will be home in a year!!! A YEAR!!!! THANK GOODNESS!! I miss him so much!! I cannot wait to see the adult he's grown up to be!!
-Bubba, my second nephew will be celebrating his 18th birthday tomorrow. I still remember when he was born!! Has that much time really flown by???
-So I haven't seen my BFF for about 2 weeks. Seriously, I'm bummed that it's been that long. Sure we text, but to actually talk in person is waaaaay better. :( I'm going to try hard not to be too bummed. Ugh...I hate it when life gets too busy!
-Ok, that's all I really have on my mind. Thank goodness it's Friday.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
In LOVE with a Viking♥
Viking:
Chocolate crème brûlée and milk chocolate whipped cream are hidden between chocolate cake layers and smothered with fresh caramel. Crushed chocolate almond pralines surround this dark and dense torte. An absolute necessity for chocolate lovers!
Last night was my very good friend, Neffie's lil birthday shindig. As much as I love this friend...I love this chocolate cake just as much :) I told her that I felt like it was my birthday too, because this was definitely a gift from the Chocolate gods. God bless "Extraordinary Desserts"!!
Hmm...what else....
So I moved back to my ol' YSA ward. I'm really stoked to be back! There's a lot of new friends to be made and several HOT guys to be dealt with ;) I do miss my ol' friends who've gone off and gotten married...but I'm glad I still keep in touch with them!
Berkeley moved back from Utah. I'm so glad, I've missed him.
I got to see my friend PajamaPants the other day. He makes me laugh. I always have the best times with him. He's been on my mind a lot, lately. The other night I woke up from a nightmare that he died. I was tremendously sad. I started crying, I would never be able to bear such a loss. PajamaPants and I met while on our mission to Jersey and we've been friends ever since. It also helps that we live in the same city. He's the best guy listener in the world!!!! I know I can go to him with anything and he always makes it better. I trust him immensely and love him dearly. I'm so grateful for him and his friendship.