So it's been a couple months since I've seen him and I think I waited to post this so I wouldn't be so emotional. I grew up with the luxury of never having to say good-bye to close friends. I never moved, nor did my friends. It was a beautiful comfort of life that I didn't fully appreciate until I became an adult. Thankfully, the internet, skype and free long distance keeps those friendships alive. However, I still wish I could take all my dear loved ones and live on a island compound. Creepy...but oh so convenient! :)
Mr. Red was one of my closest friends, for a season. Never seeing my in-town best friend, meant having to confide life's curve balls in someone else....thank God for Mr. Red. I truly have thanked my Heavenly Father for my very dear friend Mr. Red. He's helped me have a bigger, brighter perspective to life, learning and religion. He helped me ponder things a little deeper and expand my view of so many things.
I miss my friend, A LOT. I miss our walks around Imperial Beach. I miss our talks about religion, books, movies, sex, tattoos, food, death, alcohol, family, meditation, friends.... I also miss just sitting in silence and pondering the ideas he'd throw at me. All in all, I miss the comfort of having this friend, nearby. Communication has been a lil limited since he left. A couple weeks ago, I was so grateful to hear his voice as we talked about a lil dilemma I had. The best thing he brought to my life was to "let go". With my over-worrying personality, it can get the best of me. One night, after a family dinner and a spat with my oldest nephew, we walked & talked. I needed to "let go", I couldn't control everything and that was consuming my mental & emotional state. What it came down to, is that I had to remember that "Nothing's f*cked here." I didn't need to stress and worry about every little thing, because 90% of the things we worry about won't happen. That December night, on a neighborhood street corner, I needed to learn how to be "less involved." I haven't perfected that yet, but I think it's definitely helped my blood pressure. Life's a lot less stressful....I like it.
Thankfully, as he's been on this walkabout, he's been keeping a blog. I thoroughly enjoy reading it . {I'd highly suggest you check it out!} Who in the world walks city to city, with their dog, Odysseus, camping under the stars, meeting so many new & interesting people, making the most of life?
My friend, Pendleton.
