Baby dreams.

I took a lil nap this afternoon, and had an odd dream. I'd try to write it in my journal, but typing seemed a lil faster...
I dreamt that I was an IT for a SEAL team.  Our SEAL team was called up to go on a mission, but this was my first mission as an IT. (Don't ask me what SEAL team has an IT??) As I looked at the guys on my team, I obviously did not look like a typical SEAL member.  I went to work, in the evening, thinking it would be a typical IT day. Before going into the office, I found out I was pregnant...three months pregnant. After the announcement came at work that we would be going on a mission the next morning, we were told that we couldn't leave.  It was imperative that we sleep the night there so we could all prepare ourselves for the next day's events.  I looked at the guys and they were all mentally focused and quietly preparing themselves.  I had never been on a mission nor ever expected to go on one!  They SEALs knew that of all the tasks that needed to happen, I needed to be returned safely at the end of the mission.  I didn't know how to prepare myself or be calm about it! I was freaking out and wanting to go see Levi to say good-bye.  I told my commanding officer that I had important news that I wanted and needed to share with my husband, especially since I didn't know if I'd be coming back or not.  He told me that leaving the office would be detrimental to the team and myself.  I started to rethink telling Levi because if something did happen to me, I wouldn't want him to feel the pain of loss of both his wife and his unborn child. I was over the moon about being pregnant and wanted to scream it from the rooftops.  I wanted to share this elation with my sweetheart, but at the same time, the seriousness of the mission would be compromised if I left.  Somehow, I think I was able to get to Levi, who was apparently working at a car dealership, and I remember the exquisite joy we shared over knowing that we were going to be parents!  It was a blissful moment for us as we embraced so tenderly. Levi's face was so beautiful as he received the news, he looked happier than I had ever seen him.
Then that was it....I woke up.  No mission.  No baby.  I wish I could have seen our baby, that would have been nice.  My Dad has had a dream or two of my future baby.  He said that he was holding a lil baby boy with blonde curls.  I remember how happy & emotional my Dad was telling me about his dream about my future baby boy.  It makes me wonder, that's for sure. Someday. :)

Sunday Night Dreams.

Last night, I had a dream that I was holding a baby girl (probably about 6 months old).  She was so adorable, precious and beautiful.  She was very light skinned, practically all Haole {Caucasian}.  She was just the perfect amount of chubbiness…I LOVED it!!!  She had to have been my daughter because I was just so in love with her.  I remember the love I had for her…it was unfeigned, and my heart wanted to burst at the seams.  I wanted the very best for her and to care for her every need.  I remember holding her so tenderly, so softly and more gentle than any other baby I had ever held in my life.  It was such a beautiful feeling.  My heart was spilling over with all the love I have ever experienced, in my entire life.  It was just so exquisite and too beautiful for words to ever describe.  

I look forward to the day I get to hold my very own son or daughter.  Until then, I will imagine that splendid feeling from my fascinating dream. 

Dreamt of Houston.

Dreamt, again.

I had yet another dream about earwax, last night. I don't know what's going on. Last time I dreamt that I pulled out a brown, bean-size piece of earwax from my left ear.  The dream I had the other night, was someone else cleaning earwax from my ears, I believe my right ear.
I Googled what "earwax" could possibly mean. This is what I found:

• To dream that you have excessive earwax suggests that there is something you are refusing to hear.
• Stubbornness, or unwillingness or inability to listen to someone else, or perhaps to accept reality
• Self-protection
• Getting rid of things (thoughts, beliefs, relationships, situations, etc.) you don't want or need
• An obstacle to clarity or understanding
• A blockage or stoppage of a process (especially there is a buildup of earwax).

The one that really hit home was...

• Dreaming of a large amount of earwax is a strong indication that you may need to pay more attention to the people you associate with. There is a suggestion that important things may go unheard. Earwax in somebody else's ear may be alerting you to a breakdown in communication with an important person in your waking life.

Isn't it all so odd? Two nights in a row of earwax dreams.... I think I know what it is that I'm refusing to hear. I just wish some people were more direct.

Pigtails.

I've got 'em.

I love being able to pull my hair back.

Sometimes, it gets so tiring having to do my hair.

It's nice just to be able to pull it back.

Even though I look like I'm 4 years old.

It's still fun.

And kinda cute.

p.s. I had a very odd dream, last night.  I was at Mr. Red's and he was cleaning ear wax from my ear. SO ODD, right? He was using Tweezers and putting them in a lil test tube.  I was holding the tube, went into the kitchen and spilt it. I didn't want to him to clean it up, cause I thought the whole thing was kinda gross.  But there I was, laying (lying? ugh, I hate this) on his lap, while he cleaned out my ear. And apparently, I had A LOT. Gross? I think so. 

A nice lil dream....

I just remembered my dream and need to jot it down somewhere....

I was sitting in church, in casual "street clothes". It was strange for me to not be wearing a dress or a skirt, yet at the same time it wasn't such a big deal. At least I was in church, right?  On my left, there was this tall, skinny, dark haired white guy sitting next to me.  He leaned forward and I automatically started rubbing his back.  When he sat back up, I leaned into him, rested my chin on his back/shoulder and said, "I couldn't help it, you leaned forward and I thought that was a sign for me to start rubbing your back."  He was fine with it and smiled at me.  Then he kissed me.  On my right was a friend from my actual ward, she too was wearing casual clothes. 
Next thing I remember, the guy and I are walking out. He firmly grasps my hand and leads the way.  He was very good looking and kind.  He didn't look familiar like anyone I know in real life. 

It was a nice lil dream!

Baby steps towards BYU-Hawaii.

As I was doing my homework right now and I started to think that I can't be mad at myself, or grumpy to be doing homework because this is what it's going to take to accomplish my goal, my dream of graduating from Brigham Young University-Hawaii. If anything, I need to be--correction: I get to be happy to be doing this homework on a GORGEOUS sunny day.

I felt like I had an "A-HA" moment today...

I'm on my way to achieving my dream!

I'm so happy, I could cry.

The Thursday Blog.

I'm a lil bummed today.

Every Thursday, for the past 2 mont

hs my nephew has emailed home. Now that he's in Fiji, it's on Mondays. That was my favorite part of my favorite day...receiving his emails. Plus, thanks to DearElder.com we were able to email him a letter in the MTC and the MTC would print it out and give it to him on the same day. I really liked that. Ugh...Monday seems so far away. I miss him a lot today.

Also...

I had a TERRIFIC dream last night. It was about a friend and it was dang fantastic. All day I've wanted to talk to this friend and share my dream with them.....but I guess they're a lil too busy to return calls and texts. So, here I am with my lovely little dream kept to myself.

*sigh*

7:13pm

p.s. I got yet ANOTHER parking ticket today for my expired registration that I'm taking care of tomorrow (because it's pay day).  I can't believe I got ANOTHER FREAKIN TICKET!!! I'm so mad!! Karma?? For what?? Man, I need a hug....like a really good guy hug.  :(

7:58pm

p.s.s. The funniest thing I've seen all day:

Deja Vu....why, yes please!

Phew...where do I start? Wow, WOW. I talked to Mr. NY today. Wow. Have I mentioned how BEA-U-TI-FUL his eyes are!? Oh man!! They seriously change all the time....sometimes they're a fierce green....or a nice summery hazel and today they were ocean blue. GORGEOUS!!

For the past week I've been wanting to ask him if there are any WaWa's in NY. (Hello! I know it's kind of a lame question... but I was trying to let him know that I've lived out on the east coast as well.) I never knew when the best moment was or how to really approach him since his desk is right next to the office witch. Well he walked into my office and I figured it was either now or never. I turned away from my desk and said, "Hey Mr. NY, I have a question for you."

He looked up from his reading and said, "Yep, what's goin' on?"

"Do y'all have any WaWa's in New York?" (He crinkled up his face in deep thought and stepped closer to me)

"Have we had this conversation before?"

I was surprised, I wasn't expecting that response. My co-worker Mamacita turned around full of curiousity. I told him that we've never talked about WaWa and he double checked with me just in case. Again I reassured him that we hadn't. He shook his head and said that he was sure we had before (trust me, I remember all 5 of our previous verbal exchanges).

"Wow, this is total deja vu! I'm having a deja vu moment of this very conversation of WaWa."

I was stunned. Deja Vu, really? Cause I mean, the only times I have a deja vu moment is because I've DREAMT of it before. So basically is he saying that, in a roundabout way, he's dreamt of me? WOW, I soooooooo hope. That whole moment made my entire day. Gosh work is great sometimes.