Stood Up.

So I THOUGHT today was gonna be a good day....

...and then I got stood up for my date with Berkeley, tonight.

Yeah, didn't think that was going to happen since he was the one complaining last Friday night about being stood up for his date that night.  

WOW. 

I'd be more mad or pissed, but honestly, I stopped getting my hopes up about dates and whatnot.  

Besides, I've been trying to be 'less invested' with certain friendships and relationships.

Tonight's events don't really make me want to try to ask Oeste out again.  

Really, do I want to be shot down again? 

A heart can only handle so much.  

This

is

why

I

cannot

stand

dating

!!!

All the B.S. games and drama.  

Why can't it just be easy, like;

I like you.

Do you like me?

Ok, let's do something about it.

Done!

Dear God, 

I hope I don't die 

single...

or alone,

or a virgin. 

Amen.

ok, I take that back.... I am pissed. Who can't pick up a damn phone and call....or hell, at least drop a text. 

Bub & Oeste

This past weekend, my nephew Bub and his fiancee came into town for a few days.  It was a very nice visit.  I enjoyed having them here and actually miss them, a lot.  We got to eat at one of their favorite places here in San Diego, Bronx Pizza!  For thin crust/NY pizza, it was REALLY DELICIOUS!!!  We tried going there a year ago, but they closed early for a Christmas Eve party and we ended up at the taco shop next door.  :( Major bummer... but it was definitely worth waiting a year for!
I had tons of fun with them and I'm grateful to have spent time with both of them!! It was a great weekend!!  I can't wait to have them back down here again.
On another note... I did talk to Oeste on Monday night.  After FHE, we talked out in the parking lot, in the rain, for 2 hours.  Well, it wasn't exactly raining, but it was sprinkling and we were standing under a tree. It was kinda sweet.  [cheesy & lame, I know]  We talked about a lot of different things.  My feet practically had frostbite, but it was ALL worth it! :) I liked talking with him, he's really funny and he's smart! Such a hot combo! 
Did I ask him?  Well......... yes, I did. Did he say "yes"?  Nope.  Well, he didn't exactly say "no"....but it's because he left for home today and won't be back til the new year, so I won't be able to complete my last December 2011 goal with him [go to the top of the Hyatt].  So that was my 2nd time I tried to ask him out. The first time wasn't exactly direct, so I'll give him a pass... but I don't know if I want to ask again.  He's a REALLY nice guy and his humor always makes me chuckle. I think he's so endearingly cute and he's intelligent!! He speaks Spanish and has a cute lil smile!! TOTAL SWOON WORTHY!! But I don't know.... we'll see, when I see him in 2 weeks.  Siiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

T-minus 6 days til Christmas!

Man, I hate cramps. A LOT!!! TMI? Hmm....
I wish men would experience cramps. I mean, what's the worst that they go thru? They go bald.  Really, is that the worst that it can get for them? GEEZ!!! Damn cramps.


*My song was....ok.  Those dang G notes are way too dang high.  
*I got talk with Oeste for a while after church. SWOON!! Oh I think he's so endearingly cute!! I MIGHT ask him out tonight. I'm NERVOUS. 
*My dear sweet friend, Britty, just got engaged this weekend! I couldn't be anymore happy for her! Hello June wedding in Utah!
*I love my best friend StephyPooh [now MamaSteph]! Our phone calls are ALWAYS so funny! Like, laugh-til-you-cry funny. She's been the highlight of my day.
*My weekend was SPECTACULAR!! Had the GREATEST time with my nephew Bub & his fiancee!! It was a good "nephew" weekend. I'm so blessed with the BEST nephews anyone could ask for! (and niece too!)
*Did I mention how nervous I am to ask Oeste out?!?  JINKIES!! He's so funny, kind and all around GOOD! We were talking about the word, "ASSUME".  And I told him the break down of it and he said he's never said the "A" word.  Wow... that's good, in my book. 

Good luck to me & Gesu Bambino!

Man...oh man!
Tomorrow at church, I'll be singing, Gesu Bambino, in a duet.  Typically, I wouldn't mind singing at church....but......

See that VERY top note of "G", that's what I've gotta sing up to!  Lately, my voice has not been hitting those so nicely.  It's screechy!!  In the duet, I'll be singing the higher of the two voices.  I'm getting really nervous because I don't know what to do.  I'm trying to remember all that Hermana R has taught me, but I'm honest to goodness nervous!  Especially since I've gotta sing that note, at least, twice during a solo part. MAN!! AAAAHHHHHHH!!!  PLUS, it doesn't help that I'm bloated [read: menstruating].  Hermana R told me that Opera singers sign a contract saying that they cannot perform during their menstruation.  The female body retains water during that time (we already know this), and it also retains water in the vocal chords, thus altering the singing voice.  Don't believe me? Here's a link.

Good luck to me.
Hope I don't embarrass myself TOO badly.  Oh man....and Oeste will be there.


Wish me LOTS and LOTS of luck!!

A 6am Quickie...on Dec. 14!

-This past weekend wasn't ANYTHING like this weekend....

-My [home] stake choir did well on musical pieces.  I LOVE singing with the Chula Vista stake choir. I LOVE watching Hermana R lead music.  She's graceful in the way she moves her fingers, hands and arms.   Yet it's also powerful the way she a choir and accompanists at her command.  Love it! Love her!

-Work... Oh, I LOVE work!  Work is wonderful! Even when it gets close to being 'stressful', it really isn't. Sure, I felt a lil overwhelmed yesterday but I didn't feel stressed or upset about it.  Gotta love 'To-Do' lists.

-This past Monday was my first FHE in my new FHE Committee chairman (chairperson? woman? whatevers!).  Can I just say, I'm glad I have a committee.  I'm glad to know that there's a lot of good help available.  I can't wait to meet them all.  And with that said, I need some good, inexpensive, and fun FHE activity ideas.  Now when I say, "inexpensive", I mean 'free' because I don't feel like forking over my paycheck every other Monday.  Oh yeah....and it has to be approved by the Bishop first.  My thoughts on that later....

-Had a very enlightening & emotional conversation with Mr. Red the other day.  I'm so thankful that he 'gets' me, that I don't have to say much (or even anything at all) and he senses what I'm feeling and thinking.  I'm eternally grateful for his friendship.  

-I've got my work meeting today with Mulligan.  Oh man... and in the meanwhile, Oeste will be at my office for a meeting.  Fortunately/Unfortunately I've gotta go up to my office after my meeting's over.  I only say "unfortunately" because...

-I'm tired of commuting in the rain.  What usually takes 20 minutes to get to work now takes over an hour.  Dang drivers who don't know how to slow down when driving in the rain.  That is my ONLY complaint about San Diego---we don't know how to drive in the rain.  GRR!!!

-ok anyways... I've gotta get some work done before work.  Happy Wednesday! And my nephew Bub comes to town today! Happy day!

PB ward Christmas party & Vans.

-It's 12:45pm.

-I'm drinking the BEST cup of HoCho, EVER!! It's by Nestle and I added two packets-thats' the way to go!! ♥

-I love cracked wheat! Try it! The texture is fun! 

-I saw Oeste tonight at my ward Christmas party. I asked him if he knew of any good places for Pho.  It was a brief conversation about Pho and where to have some. I guess he couldn't tell what I was trying to hint at. :-/  Do I even try to attempt to ask him, directly? Ugh.... I don't know...we'll see.  

-So my new ward friend, "Vans" was also at the Christmas party.  He came over to talk to me and it was cool getting to know him more. He studied Psychology (trippy).  I asked him if he's assessed me. He has.  I asked him to share it with me.  He said that I live my religion, but I don't make it my entire life.  I like that, I believe it.  He said that I'm easy going and friendly.  All true!  I told him I was a lil worried he'd tell me negative things, but wanted him to tell me his brutal honest opinion anyways.  He said he likes to be positive with his assessments since so many people think Psychology is just negative.  It was good.  I think it'd be cool to chill with him sometime.  He attended BYU-Hawaii, so I think there's some "hang loose" in him.  Small world, he knows Berkeley.  They grew up in the same ward and live out in east SD.   Vans suggested that I make it more of a habit to drive to east county to visit Berkeley.  I don't really want to, since it's about a 45 minute drive.  Berkeley and I meet up when it's convenient for both of us.  Eh, we'll see...

-My nephew, Sim & niece, Novee went by Mr. Red's tonight.  She invited him over for dinner.  Bless her heart! :) She's been wanting me to cook for him, again.  My family has all taken a liking to Mr. Red. Can't blame them, he is pretty spectacular!  When he interacts with them, he makes them feel like they're the most important person on the planet. I know this.  He does it to me all the time. I'm pretty dang lucky, I know.  

Goals: Before & During 2012!

As I was lying awake in my bed at 3am, this morning, I started to think of some of the things I would like to accomplish before 2012 and during 2012.  Just so I can reflect back on it, I thought I'd post it here.

BEFORE 2012: (so basically, within the next 29 days--TOTALLY doable!)

• Watch Inception.
• Go to the top of the Hyatt hotel.  (It's 40 floors up and has a beautiful view of SD...from what I hear)
• Eat Pho.
• Read another book.
• Eat at Bronx Pizza. 

I really want to do all of those before 2012.  Luckily, Mr. Red just bought the Blu-ray version of Inception off of Amazon, so that goal will be completed soon. When my nephew, Bub/Kea, comes to visit we'll FINALLY go eat at Bronx. As for the others... I'm thinking of asking Oeste out to either Pho or the Hyatt..or both? :) We'll see.  

DURING 2012: My "12 in 12" goals! (It's still a work in progress, this is what I have so far)

1. Visit Maui.
2. Get my passport.
3. Pursue a relationship.
4. See my best friend StephyPooh & Britty.
5. Finish Les Miserables.
6. Find out what's so great about running/jogging {by doing it myself...pray for me.}

So that's where I'm at, so far......  I'm really stoked for these goals.  I love the sense of accomplishment! Besides, it's good to work towards something...that's the point to this life, right? :) Good luck to me!

Talks, Bread & the New Ward.

Well...my talk was pretty good.  I was happy with it.  Speaking for 20 minutes is a lil daunting, but I think I did well.  I actually like speaking, it's fun...it's just everything that leads up to it, that makes me crazy/scared.  Not to be confused with 'psychotic', as in 'crazy & scared'....ah, you know what I mean.  Anyways, I did well and I was pleased. I'm so glad that I had a friend there in the congregation. It meant a lot to me.
I made Mama McK's bread today. I was so ecstatic! I've been wanting to make bread lately and I've been missing her....so it was a nice solution.  Dang, I'm starting to crave some now!! It was my first time making bread (from scratch, without a bread maker--by hand, baby!) and I'm pleased as punch that it came out well! My family loved it! I can't wait to try her Cinnamon rolls this weekend! :( Now I miss her even more!

I'm liking my ward more and more. (I think I say that every Monday, but it's true).  I like that I'm making friends with more people each time.  I went to FHE tonight, since we were going to be playing Volleyball. Had a GREAT time! I saw Favre on my way in, but I guess he was leaving as I was arriving.  Oh well....  However, I got to play with "Oeste" tonight.  Oh I think he is so cute! And he's funny!  I think what I like about Oeste is that he's not SUPER hot or gorgeous, not like what I'm use to....but his friendly, funny spirit is so attractive. I like that :)