Why do we allow ourselves to feel vulnerable with certain people? Why do we let them see our inner heart, expose ourselves to the very depth of possibly being hurt? I guess I do it because I like to freely speak my mind and hope that I can trust that person with my thoughts and feelings. I don't want to be "guarded", I don't want to have to restrain myself. I like it when I can trust someone enough to share myself with them.
I sent Houston an email.
I apologized and shared my feelings, for him.
Do you know how gut wrenching it is, waiting and hoping for a response...a good response?
"Hope for the best, prepare for the worst", right?
To tell you the truth, I'm scared. I'm afraid of what the email might say.
It might not be what I want, but at least I can walk away saying, "I tried" than to forever think, "Coulda, shoulda, woulda".
Now, the wait.....