Migraine.

Today has got to be my least favorite Thursday--EVER.

Before my [work] partner, Mamacita left work this evening, she met with our supervisor, 'Bowie'. After her lil meeting, she hastily grabbed her purse and said, "BYE!". Usually we leave together, or at least say to the other, "Call/Text you later!"--(we've been more than just co-workers this last year and a half, we were the best of friends, thick as thieves!)

None of that tonight.

So I text her asking, "Dude you ok?" and what followed, for the next hour and a half is NOTHING I would have EVER imagined!!!

Apparently someone in our office told Mamacita that I was "talking crap" about her to our asst. manager today. Mamacita took it to Bowie and he even tried to tell her that he couldn't see me doing such a thing and that maybe she should just ask me about it before blowing it all out of proportion.

I guess she decided to skip the 'asking' part and went straight for the 'blowing up' part. She cussed me out and went so far as to say, "Ur f**king with the wrong person". I have NEVER had anyone ever blow up on me or use such foul language so harshly against me. I do not and will not take that lightly. I took that as a threat. And tomorrow I will take that to my manager.

I just never would have imagined my day ending this way...or even my friendship with Mamacita. My heart truly hurts.

Mandarins/Mandarines

Yesterday....

I went out with Morgan, my best friend Bugs and her husbie. It was so fun!! We went bowling (I came in second place to Morgan, in bowling) and then out for pizza. I had Anchovies for the first AND LAST TIME during dinner. It's ok, just tastes like extremely salty fish. Nothing flattering about that.

I thoroughly enjoying going out with Morgan. I feel comfortable with him, I could probably tell him just about anything and he'd be okay with it. I don't think there's really anything that would shock him. I love the way he listens and responds accordingly. Oh trust me, that's a big deal when you've dealt with guys that MAYBE listening to what you're saying and then start on a WHOLE different topic without acknowledging what you even said!!! That is SO DANG ANNOYING!!! Morgan has a heart of gold and I sincerely appreciate it.

And then my day got better!!...

I came home and thought I'd try on some of my old clothes that haven't fit for a while--like 4 years ago 'while'. OH.MY.GOSH!! Can I just say that nothing feels better than losing weight and fitting into old clothes!! 4-6 dress sizes in a matter of months! My FAVORITE red shirt fits again and makes my boobs look amazing--Sorry, TMI? And my most favorite dress ever fits again!! It's a white temple dress I bought about 3.5 years ago and wore a couple times--the last time being in the Laie Hawaii temple. It's such an exquiste cut and I feel truly beautiful in it. If I could, I would even get married in it! I LOVE IT A LOT!! I could have cried last night when it slipped perfectly over my head, shoulders and hips. I CANNOT wait to get to the temple!!! I just have to wear it somewhere, soon!!! So I guess you could say this is a little blessing in disguise of having Meniere's disease.

Oh.....I can't wait to see Morgan again :)

F.R.I.D.A.Y.!!!

* * * 5 F A V E S f o r F R I D A Y ! ! ! * * *

1. BFF's/Girlfriends: They are seriously the best! There's something endearing about female friendships. I was texting a friend this morning about a date she has tonight. I became so excited for her date and couldn't wait to hear the details of it. I told her to text/call me after her date tonight....but the part I enjoy is the fact that we can call each other ANY time of day or night. There's not a time limit as to when we can or can't call. I love having that with my closest girlfriends....knowing I can call at midnight after a date just to dish details--so much fun!!

2. Enjoying the rain, indoors: I love listening to the rain as it falls. There's something so relaxing and refreshing about it. After a rain fall, I love opening up the windows and just taking in the earth's aroma after it's been cleansed. So yummy!

3. My king-size Down Comforter: Five years ago, when I moved to Utah my very best friend StephyPooh gave me a Tempur-Pedic pillow (cause I LOVED her's from the mission) and a beloved yellow king-size Down Comforter-as a "Welcome to Utah!!" gift. Oh you have no idea how much I TRULY LOVE it!! When winter rolls around, I become so excited that I get to pull it out and use it!!! It's ubersoft and oh so cozy!!! I'm always reminded of her love and friendship when I use it. It's GREAT!!!

4.Supermint Extra Gum:

I happend to come across this when

the gas station didn't have my typical Polar Ice gum. Ever since then, I've been in love!! I LOVE this gum!! It is so dang delicious!! Makes my breath fresh in 2.2 seconds!!! The flavor lasts FOREVER!!! If you haven't tried this yet, you HAVE to!! TODAY!! LIKE RIGHT NOW!!!! (You can thank me later!)

5. Morgan: He's such a wonderful & SWEET guy!! I'm so truly grateful to get to know him again. He has a heart of gold!! He's like my BFF Bugs, but just in male form. It's easy being myself with him and he doesn't freak out by my lil crazy/funnny antics. Plus he listens AND responds accordingly (how many guys really do that?) I seriously can't wait til tomorrow! :)

Breathtaking!!

Ever since Saturday when Morgan & I went to the Old Point Loma Lighthouse, I've been thinking of the beautiful view from up there. This picture doesn't even do it justice!! I LOOOOOOOOVED the view of San Diego up there!!! I've gotta say, it is now one of my MOST FAVORITE places in all of San Diego. The views are just spectacular and breath taking!!! (Sorry for the funky light blue spot in the middle of the pic--copyright mark). The angle of this pic doesn't capture just how high the lighthouse is. It's about 462 feet above sea level The sailboats & yachts on the water looked no bigger than an inch! TINY!! Oh I loved it up there. I don't know if it was because of the gorgeous view...or if it was the agreeable weather...or if it was the delightful company? Perhaps it was all of the above. Whatever the case maybe, I can't wait to get back to that wall perched high above the bay!

p.s. Happy Thursday :)

"That's what friends are for...."

Friend –noun :
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter:
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile:

In the last couple of months, I have come to appreciate my very closest friends, especially my best friend. How many times have I called her up, without saying a word and she knew exactly what I needed: a drive down to the beach so I could just talk. I am thankful to those friends of my family who have stayed true to the very definition of 'friend'. It truly is one of life's blessings to have friends in whom we can trust, wholeheartedly. I have often thought about Job, from the Bible. When he lost just about EVERYTHING, the Book of Job says this about his three friends: "So they sat down with him upon the ground seven days and seven nights, and none spake a word unto him: for they saw that his grief was very great". That's one of my favorite passages from the scriptures. All his friends did was be there for him, they didn't say anything at all. They just sat with him. It makes me immensely grateful for those friends who have ever done that very act for me as well. I hope that I am and can be that very type of friend whenever I am called upon. Thank you friends.

The Car Analogy.

I was thinking last night about my previous car, my Kia Sportage. It was stick (manual), had four doors and was very bright & airy. I didn't like the inadequate amount of cup holders or the fact that in time the back passenger door couldn't be used and the brakes made a horrific nose--but I put up with it, I accepted it. About a year ago I bought my lovely Honda Accord. I love how it's Ruby Red, has a sun/moonroof and gets great gas mileage. There are certain things that I love about my Honda that makes it VERY easy to forget all about my ol' Kia. However, there are also things I miss about my ol' Kia, things that were comfortable and familar.

When I first got my Honda, it was like a 'shiny, new toy'. It was extremely easy to forget about that heap of junk Kia. It had upgrades and totally new features...things my Kia didn't have. In time, I started to miss having four doors, I missed the height (being up a lil higher, compared to a car), all the memories that were made in the car, the ease and power of a manual car....ya know, the little things--things the Honda couldn't provide. But would I want to go back to the Kia? No, not necessarily, the upgrade of a newer car was a lot better! But I missed the familiarity and comfort of something I've known for a very long time. Of course I'd have to adapt to the Honda and have since. I love it but I'm grateful for my experience with the Kia. It's helped me appreciate what I have now.

That's how I feel about my Ex and the men I have in my life now. I miss my Ex, but things can't go back to the way they were. He was a chapter in my life, just like my Kia. I will always be grateful for the time I had with the 'Kia', but I know that my 'Honda' is a much better choice...or maybe the Honda's just in my life temporarily and something better will come along? I wish I could have both in my life, but that's not really an option.

Oh well..... that's just my thoughts on a very rainy Tuesday afternoon.

Saturday is a special day...

WOW!! Yesterday I had such a dang TERRRRRRRIFIC day!!! An ENTIRE TERRIFIC day!!! It was so FUN!!

On Friday evening I went to Morgan's house to pick up some pants (3 bags full!) he wanted to give my nephews. We sat and talked for about a half hour [My BFF was in the car-sorry Bugs!]. I was nervous as I walked up to his door, but as soon as we sat down all that disappeared. It's so easy to talk to him. I feel so comfortable around him. He asked me what my plans were for the weekend and I told him I had none since I was suppose to go out of town to visit relatives. He asked if he could take me to the movies and then go to the Saturday evening adult session of stake conference. I later called him that night to say that I didn't want to go to the movies but wanted to go eat waffles instead! (It's hard to get to know someone while watching a movie in a theatre). He was game!

Saturday morning-ish he picked me up and we headed to a waffle house by the Sports Arena [SO DANG DELICIOUS!] and then he had 2 errands to run (the mall & Fry's Electronic store) No biggie, he's very nice company....it's very comfortable to be around him. Afterwards he asked me if I had any errands to run or if I wanted to go anywhere. I told him "Balboa Park", but I can go there anytime, So I changed my mind to "The Old Point Loma Lighthouse & Cabrillo National monument". We walked around and ended up sitting on this wall which over looks San Diego bay, Coronado, the airport and basically all of San Diego. It was SO BREATHTAKINGLY BEAUTIFUL!!!!! I was completely mesmerized by the view. We sat and talked for a couple hours and the weather was totally agreeable. We walked down to Senor Cabrillo to see his monument and then left. Talking to Morgan is easy and enjoyable, he makes me laugh and I think I do the same for him as well. He took me back to the Sports Arena area and we ate at this cool lil dive. They serve spaghetti sandwiches in this hollowed out roll (so it doesn't spill out the sides) but I had the lasagna sandwich. Even though it was 5 hours since breakfast I was STILL SO FULL!! I ate half of my 6 inch sandwich and he was asking me what I like for dessert and what my favorite ice cream is. So then he took me to Mission Valley for Maggie Moo's cremery ice cream. It was DAAAAANG good!!! Afterwards we strolled along the store fronts, two of which were furniture stores. We commented on different pieces and what we liked for a bedroom. It didn't feel weird that we were talking about what we wanted in a bed. He drove me home and we ended the evening.

I haven't had a day like that since...well, maybe ever! It was nice to not have to think, or be nervous... I felt completely comfortable with him and I enjoyed every second of it! This weekend has been totally awesome!! Now I know why people dread Mondays! :)

A Thursday Blessing :)

I love Thursdays. I really truly do... There's always something magical about them. Today I received one of the nicest, sweetest emails. I had a perma grin on my face for the rest of the day. I loved it!

Sweety,

You are one of the most gentle, most kind, most honorable, most considerate people I have met in a long time, and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate your consideration. You seem to be a grown up and a sweety at the same time.

As for the old guy,,,Sometimes people just spit out stuff that makes no sense; it is probably just some animus/anger that he is holding in and he just memorized that speech-- it seems so familiar? like tv..Just a very stupid thing to say....You never know where people are coming from..You are a god-fearing woman, as I understand it...People in this business and around here sometimes have problems....

Thank you Atticus :) So maybe I'm not COMPLETELY over him just yet....

Home is where the heart is.

Yesterday was a slightly difficult day.

As I walked to my car yesterday morning, I could hear the school kids arrive back to school from their holiday break. My mind was filled with loving thoughts of my niece and how she should have been amongst the school children. It made me miss her and the morning commute was a very tearful one.

On the way home from a party last night, the radio started to play "Hey Soul Sister" by Train... my thoughts returned to my nephews and niece. If you haven't heard it, oh man, you're missing out! It's such a fun & upbeat song. Whenever we were in the car together we'd listen to it over and over and over. We loved it!! Again with the water works....

I have come to learn that home is truly where your heart is. The house where I live doesn't feel much like a home these days. It's quiet and it's hard to be there. But I have to be since my parents are there and they miss the kids just as much. Having to comfort a weeping parent is a hard thing, but I'm reassured by the fact that families can be together forever.

Thank you Heavenly Father for blessings us with eternal families.

Tuesday meet Randi...

-Sleep is a VERY good thing, sometimes. I went home after work and slept for a couple hours, got up and fell back asleep an hour later til this morning. I had a lot on my mind so it was nice to not have to think of ANYTHING!

-Can I just say, I hate dealing with student loans. SO.DANG.FRUSTRATING!!!

-I get to coach the Young Women's Volleyball again tonight. I seriously love it! I miss my ol' YW from a couple years ago, but I think this set of YW have a lot of potential. They're all friendly and willing to learn, it's great! It's a very nice (and very welcomed) distraction right now.

-So Atticus...WEIRD, VERY FREAKIN WEIRD!! I don't know if he's telling the truth half of the time or not. I really cannot stand that. I seriously loathe dishonesty. I will not tolerate it, not even in the least bit.

-I went to see Avatar with Bugs, her husband and Morgan. I was surprised that I liked it! It was trippy, but kinda felt long towards the end.

-Hmm, I've only used my Cricut twice since receiving it. I just haven't been in the mood to scrapbook since it came. Maybe later this week. But I do want a bread machine now. I think it'd be great to wake up each morning to fresh bread!

T as in Tom...and Thursday!

I like this------------>

It makes me happy.

After a VERY CRAPPY MRI experience I skipped out on my doctor's appointments today (I at least called to reschdule--so I'm not that irresponsible) and played around with my new Cricut Expression. OH I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! SO MUCH FUN!!!! I had never used one or seen one in real life (Thanks Google) so watching it for the first time REALLY BLEW ME AWAY!! I can't wait to start scrapbooking my mission.

Oh Atticus, Atticus...this man is so funny yet difficult to easily read (a lawyer's mysterious allure?). He definitely makes work a lot less like "work" and he told me that he missed me in the office this morning. Oh the heartstrings are being pulled as we speak...

I'll be going out with my BFF, her husband and Morgan this Saturday. We're going to see Avatar. A lil nervous...not too sure why.

Blessed beyond measure!

Today, I post this with a very heavy heart....

My Tender Mercy for today are my nephews & niece.

I've been meaning on posting this for a while, but due to very crazy circumstances I haven't been able to do so.

Almost 20 years ago I was blessed to become an Aunt at the ripe ol' age of 9. I never felt like an aunt to my oldest nephew, he's always been like an younger brother. I remember vividly that day in the hospital seeing him for the first time. I couldn't believe it! A newborn baby was joining the family. It was a wonderful day.

Then two years later, the same thing happened again. Another nephew born to the family! Different hospital and much different circumstances. We weren't able to bring him home so soon due to some sort of blood testing that didn't match up. It was a sad day, on what shouldn't have been. He stayed in the hospital for a while until he was finally cleared. Ever since then that nephew had a special place in my heart.

Three years later another nephew joined the family. I was 14 at the time and it felt a little weird--I couldn't believe yet another newborn was coming into the family. For 5 years it was just "the two boys"...and now came another. He was so small and smelled so delicious. He grew into a very adorable and cute little boy.

And then almost 9 years ago, a baby girl finally joined the family. For so long I, along with my family, was only use to boys--boy noises, boy clothes, boy scouts, boy smells....everything boy! But what a joy it's been having her in the family. She surely balances out the estrogen against 3 older brothers.

I have been blessed beyond measure with the 3 greatest nephews and 1 niece. They are funny to the point of wetting your pants. They ALWAYS make me laugh. They aren't like typical "nieces & nephews", at times they're like my younger siblings and sometimes the closest I'll ever come to having children. I have loved them from the second I found out about their existence...and loved them infinitely more upon holding them for the first time. I've helped nurse them back to health and rocked them to sleep...helped them on countless projects and chose to hang out with them over friends. We've attended concerts together and they continue to introduce me to new music--that's when I start to feel the age difference of being their 'Aunt'. They have been my world and heart. I will love them every single second until the end of time and I hope they know and feel this. I am blessed to have them in my life forever. Although I won't be seeing them daily, for a season, they will be in my every thought and prayer. I have come to now learn a very expensive lesson...never take ANYTHING or ANYONE for granted. I can't wait to see them again and I know that our relationship will not change, no matter the distance.

Thank you Heavenly Father for blessing my life with four of your choicest angels.

New Year's Day 2010...probably the VERY best day I've had in a VERY LONG time. I spent NYE with my best friend, Bugs--had pizza and [tried to] watch a couple chick flicks. It was fun just being with her. Since there were crazy drivers on the road I decided to just spend the night at her house. (Gosh I'm grateful for my UBER COMFY Queen size bed). For lunch we went to Bugs' parents house where we had THE BEST homemade Menudo & Tamales. Good food and great company. It was such a relaxing afternoon! And the weather...oh the weather was so beautiful! It must have been 70 degrees!! Hung out on the patio swing having great conversations with her family. It was simply perfect! We later left to the mall to do a lil 'after Christmas' shopping. Found my perfect purple purse! And the sunset that day was amazingly beautiful!! Luckily Bugs and I caught the tail end of that sunset down at the beach. The weather was still very warm-AMAZING weather day!! That evening I had a date with someone I've known for the last 8 years. TOTALLY cute and has such a great, fun personality. I had to drive but that's okay...one day my niece will be able to drive us to the movies. I had the wonderful opportunity of hanging out with my niece and going to any movie of her choice. Chipmunks 2 isn't so bad...the headache I had before the movie didn't get any worse, so that's a good sign, right? All in all I've gotta say, it was a magnificent day!