Sick/Sleep.

I'm sick.
I can thank my cube mate for this.
I sound like Barry White.
I felt so bad for Levi last night because I just need to cough all this funk out.
Sometimes, I feel so bad for Levi because I'm such a restless sleeper...and falling asleeper.  Seriously, I just can't lie still sometimes.  And A LOT of times, I take all the covers.  And maybe occasionally, I talk in my sleep.  
God bless this man for putting up with my terrible sleeping habits. I'm so thankful he'll always be my #mcm. (Man Crush Monday)

I'm so lucky, I know. Happy Monday! T-minus 3 days til Christmas.

Attitude of Gratitude - Day 6: Our Bed.

No one should love a bed as much as Levi & I do! Seriously, this is the most comfortable bed I have ever slept on!! It's so lusciously inviting ALL. THE. TIME.!!! Once you lay down, it pretty much captivates you! It's perfection, 24/7! I remember our old bed and how tiny it was!! Only one of us could sleep flat, while the other had to sleep on their side. Oh so sad!! One Saturday while I was sick, Levi scooped me up and drove us over to SleepTrain. I thought we were just going to look around. 30 minutes later we were being rung up and scheduling a delivery time for the next day. I think that was the first time that I had no problem being sick in bed! :) 

Whenever we go on trips, sometimes we can't wait to get home so we can sleep on our own bed! I typically have those same feelings when I'm at work! 

I love this bed, I truly do...but the thing I  love most about it, is who I share it with. :)

Late Thursday.

*I'm so truly grateful for the kind friends and loved ones who have encircled me with an abundance of love and understanding, this week.  Man, I feel like a million bucks! My loved ones are the greatest and in turn it makes me want to be a better friend & kinder person to everyone.

*This week has been such a doozy.  I can't wait for this weekend! My 2 oldest nephews will be visiting! It's been so long!! All my nephews and niece, in one place.  This makes my heart happy

*I don't have a lot to blog about, tonight.  

*I'm excited to celebrate Hermanita's birthday tomorrow.  Man, I'm constantly reminded of the wonderful souls I have in my life that truly bless my life in more ways than one.  

*THREE of my friends had babies this week!  WOW!! Crazy exciting! I love them all and wish I could visit all of them and snuggle their babies.

*I had a dream of Tina, Chuy & Chuy's nephew, last night.  It was weird to dream about a baby.  When I told Tina & Chuy my dream, they both said I was next to have a baby.  Uh....we'll see about that.  Oh how I love sleep so much!

*Speakin of which... I better hit the hay!  Peace out!

My Happy Place.

Some might think this post is crazy, but I just wanted to post about our bed. This is my most favorite spot in the entire world.  I love this bed so much!! It is big, beautiful and extremely comfortable.  Every morning, it's so difficult leaving this lusciousness of comfort.  Seriously, it's VERY difficult.  It just sucks me in and keeps me trapped there!  Even if I lie down for a second, minutes fly by so easily. 
Another reason why I love this spot so much is because of who I share it with.  The bed always feels a little bit bigger when he's not there, with me.  Sometimes I come home from work, before he's home, and throw myself on this bed to just relax.  I love sprawling out on it, but I'd much rather share it with my sweetheart.
All in all, this is probably the most comfortable bed I have ever slept on, in my entire life.  I love it so much!  Jokingly, I told Levi, "I think I love this bed more than some of my friends."  It's not the friends, it's just this bed is so perfect.
So so SO perfect! 

#fact.

Wednesday, March 19.

Today was just a crazy/off day. 

Maybe it's because I almost got into a car accident, on the way to work.

Or because I've been a lil more stressed at work since that chick got canned.  

Whatever the reason, I just wanted to get home to Levi and eat the dinner he so kindly prepared.

When I got off of work, this is what faced me:

I was NOT looking forward to the drive home.  Especially when it should only take me 13 minutes to get there.  But when I finally arrived home 45 minutes later, this is what came in the mail for me:

I was WAY stoked to get mail! Good mail!  It was a package from my friend's wife, who sent me essential oil samples of Wild Orange & Lavender.  Seriously, so kind of her!  So here I am, with a dab of lavender behind my ears and on the bottom of my feet.  I already feel so relaxed and a little less stressed.  I couldn't be more grateful.  I think I better get to sleep and let this lavender oil really do its job.  G'nite!

A Tuesday Quickie....

*I enjoyed dinner with two old friends tonight.  It was lovely catching up with them and being friends in real life.  I LOVE seeing friends in real life, since we mostly communicate via Facebook & Instagram.

*I'm really enjoying work.  So far, nothing feels overwhelming, which is great!  When I interviewed with them, it sounded like it would be 100x more difficult, but I'm glad I'm understanding everything coming my way.  It was a great boost of confidence today, when my trainer said I'm doing awesome and picking it all up very quickly.  I'm so grateful for all the job experiences that have led me to this point in life. 

*I'll be seeing my parents tomorrow.  I feel like every time I see them, they age a year older.  Oh my parents, I wonder what it would have been like to be friends with them at my age right now.  Isn't that something to think about.

*I'm excited for Valentine's Day/Weekend!!  I think I'm even more stoked to have Monday off so I can sleep in.  Seriously, I've been dragging myself out of bed every morning.  I don't know why I'm so exhausted?! Perhaps it's because I have to be at work an hour earlier than my last job and I have to leave an hour before I start (work is 12 miles away, but traffic is terrible!)  Anyways, back to Monday... Happy Sleep Day, to me!

*I just realized that tomorrow marks the 10 year anniversary of returning home from my mission.  Seriously, 10 years??!? Ten years since this picture!!  Wow.... I was so young, on so many levels. I'm so grateful for the life experiences that I've had since then.

*Now that I feel old, I should get to sleep.... It's already hard in the morning, no use making it any harder!  Good night, world!

Again!! GRRR!!!

Today, I'm sick.

I feel like I was just saying this a couple weeks ago.  I shouldn't be saying this until later this year. 

WHAT. THE. HECK.!?!

I'm so mad, that i'm sick!!  Of ALL the weekends this should happen, why this one?!?!? UGH!!!!! Mad, I tell you, MAD!!!

So here I am, at work, trying to keep my germs to myself, because OBVIOUSLY someone here didn't do that and some of us are sick! That makes me mad, also!! GRRR!!! 

I'm drinking water like a drought is upon us and taking 10,000iu's of Vitamin D, every 3 hours, to try to knock this cold outta me.  I'm also taking DayQuil so it can help stop anymore symptoms from getting worse.  I wish I could go to sleep, I know that would help immensely!  7 more hours to go.....  Wish me luck. 

The October 2, 2013 Blog

-I couldn't sleep last night with stuff on my mind.  3 hours should kinda be sufficient for today.  

-I think tomorrow's a very good day to buy myself pink roses. I always see them when I go to Costco, but I never buy them.  Tomorrow's the day.

-My cousin Lela, whom I haven't seen since I was 7, is coming from Australia with her daughter and grandsons.  They'll be meeting up with her son & his gf that were here a few weeks ago.  They'll all be going to Disneyland, and I'm looking forward seeing all of them!   I just wish the rest of Lela's sons were coming with her.  I haven't seen them since I was a teenager.  

-My niece is spending the day in the office, with my sister and I.  She's growing up so quickly!  She's already planning her 13th birthday party, that won't be here for another 6 months.  

-I don't really have much more to blog about.  I'm still thinking of deactivating my Facebook, this month.  I'm just tired of nosy "friends" who like to gossip and spread vicious stories.  It's even more annoying that some of these "friends" are those from my church congregation.  

-Since I signed up for my birthday certificate at Benihana, I've been receiving email notifications for all their specials.  It makes me want to go there, more and more and more!!!  All of their foods look so dang good!!!  It's been a while since I've been there, so I'm anxious to eat there again!! 

-Ok, so maybe the 3 hours of sleep aren't going to hold me over today.  I think I see a diet Coke in my near future, especially if I'm to go to dinner with a friend tonight. MUST. WAKE. UP.!!! 

-I'm kinda stoked that this month kick starts the holiday season.  I can't wait to break out our panda costumes again!! Seriously, my favorite Halloween costume EVER!!!  

Butterfly Knots

Yesterday morning, I had some pretty big butterfly knots. I wasn't exactly sure why, I think it was because I had to pack and I still needed to do some laundry.  Plus, my strength is only about 70% back and my lil health "hiccup" is still a slight issue, unfortunately. 
I think at the core of it all, was the fact that I'm going to be spending the next 72 hours with Levi.  Meaning.....he's going to be the first person to see me awake in the morning.  All those stories I heard from friends waking up an hour before their spouse/partner to get ready & pretty, then jumped back into bed TOTALLY makes sense now.  I'm not hideous or anything, but that's when your guard's down and I think we can all think of how we really look like, in the morning.....I'm sure it's pretty close to my shake face photo:

Plus, I talk/mumble in my sleep...and often dream about falling off a curb, which jerks me awake.  Yep.......I guess after 8 months of being with Levi, it's about time he sees this side of me.  Shikies....

The Good, The Bad & The Ugly - Easter Weekend Edition.

*The Good: I spent Saturday & Sunday with Levi and it was EXACTLY what I needed.  It was peacefully blissful! I loved every minute of it!  It was quiet, relaxing and the pure definition of peace.  I. LOVED. IT.!!!  It was nice to take a nap and not awake to stomping feet from above, friends of my upstairs neighbor constantly whistling/yelling/calling out for them or any other stressful thing.  I love nothing more than spending time with Levi. Also, it was so lovely being able to sit next to some of my favorite people at church, Levi & Ame, while listening to Mac's wonderful talk on the Resurrection & Atonement. 

*The Bad: I went to sleep so dang late.  I started watching Criminal Minds and thought I should watch several episodes.  Who goes to sleep at 4am when they need to be work at 8:30. Bad choice!

*The Ugly: As I was walking out of my apt. this morning, my upstairs neighbor made an extremely loud noise... as if they dropped something very large and heavy! TWICE IN A ROW!  I seriously thought something was going to fall through our ceiling.  It pissed me off, so I walked back to the kitchen, grabbed a broom and hit the ceiling 3 times.  I could hear them yelling, and as I walked out the door, she stuck her head out the window to yell at me.  We went at it for a minute or two, and luckily the security guard came around the corner just as it was ending.  He knows about the ongoing problem these people are, so he went upstairs to talk to them.  She/Debra answered the door and said that they had "dropped a couch".   How do you drop a couch so that it makes two loud noises, a few seconds apart?  I just can't stand these neighbors of mine! Go away bad dream!

V Sesh

I haven't been able to sleep well, for the last few nights.  My upstairs neighbors have been SO. EFFIN. EXTREMELY. LOUD. til the early morning hours.  Unfortunately I can hear EVERYTHING because they not only make noise inside their apartment, their foul mouthed loud fights drag outside to the back parking lot and everywhere in between [aka: all the surrounding windows of my apartment].  I almost called the cops twice because it's just a damn nuisance!!!  Plus I'm so tired of hearing those chicks have loud & VERY vigorous sex.  Last night/this morning, I heard them going at it 3 times!
I'm just in terrible mood, today.  I'm so dog tired.  My Meniere's is back with a vengeance and it's kickin' my ass--hardcore.   My hearing in my left ear is shot, unless I hold a part of my neck to make the "whooshing" noise subside.   All I want to do is sleep...some good, deep, uninterrupted SLEEP.

Damn, I seriously loathe my neighbors. 

My 6am thought process, this morning.

"I can't believe I woke up this early WITHOUT an alarm clock."

2 seconds later...

"I can't believe I woke up THIS early, without an alarm clock."

It's funny what a matter of seconds can do for ya.

Friday, May 11

*The last two mornings I've been waking up needing to use the bathroom around 5:30am.  I like to have my window cracked open, which is ok....til I'm trying to go back to sleep.  Apparently all the birds in San Diego, like to chirp in the big tree near my window.  Seriously, I wanna buy a BB gun or some firecrackers.  
*Am I done unpacking? No.  It's all so overwhelming :(

*Ask me what I was doing around 6:30am this morning?  I was just about to fall back asleep, when Mr. Red called to ask if I could babysit.  Never in a million years did I ever think I'd be receiving such a phone call......especially at that hour....especially from him.  He's my friend and he's done a lot for me.  So I got up, got dressed, ate breakfast and then found myself at his place an hour later.  In case you were wondering how last night went.... well, it was interesting.  I miss my friend. Life has surely changed. 

*I'm currently in love with this musical dedication to Junior Seau:

I just love his voice and the tribute is pretty touching.  A life gone too soon.  I remember once reading that, "Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain." I feel for Junior Seau and anyone who reaches that level of pain.

*I don't really have much else to blog about.  I'm kinda tired.  G'nite. 

SLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG.

I took a Tylenol PM to help me sleep last night. I do this on occasion when I need some good, deep, uninterrupted sleep.  Ideally, it's best to take it early in the evening so that the after effects are lost while you sleep.   However, if you take it too late, you end up feeling hammered or sluggish the next day. Example: Me.

Oh man, seriously, my body's waaaaaaay too relaxed and I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat.   But I did get the best sleep imaginable last night. So thankful for it!!!  Especially because my Meniere's has been acting up lately. It's like a Catch-22 with Meniere's and sleep.  I can't sleep because of the Meniere's (more so the Tinnitus part of Meniere's) which makes me fatigue which sometimes stresses me out and makes my Meniere's worse, then the Vertigo part sets in and makes sleeping impossible.  See, it's a vicious round. It sucks, but stressing over it doesn't help me because stress, whether good or bad is just BAD! ("good stress", as described by my doctor, "is like anticipating an upcoming vacation or happy event"). 

So taking Tylenol PM is a blessing and a curse.  Right now, I'm feeling the curse part of it and could surely use a nap........oh man!

H@PPY THU®SD@Y!!

Powder ≠ Good Idea.

I remember the time I came home from Young Women's camp when I was 16 years old.  I had such a blast and hardly slept the entire week.  When I came home, my nephew greeted me with a Watermelon Jolly Rancher and insisted that I try one of his new favorite candies.  I barely had the wrapper off, when I immediately crash landed on the living room floor and fell asleep.  When I woke up, hours later, I had the WORST taste in my mouth.... not to mention my arm and face were sticky.  That didn't bother me as much as the terrible taste I had in my mouth.  I tried to drink water and brush my teeth, but I couldn't get rid of it.  Even through dinner I could still taste that wretched candy.  It felt like it was in my nasal passages and with every swallow, I could taste it.  It didn't go away for a long time, that evening.

This morning, I woke up with that same feeling...  

I straightened my hair on Tuesday, and wanted to have it straight for an event I have tonight. I liked the way I FINALLY had it.  It was just the right amount of oil and weighed my hair down just perfectly....so I didn't wash it last night.  However, yesterday I came across a friend's blog that said inbetween her 3-4 days apart of hair washing, she uses baby powder to absorb any extra oil, from her scalp.  I thought I'd do that last night.

Bad, BAD mistake....

Oh man, I couldn't fall asleep because of the strong scent of baby powder ALL around me.  I felt like I was inhaling it in by boatload.  And then my eyes started to dry out.  I had to put eye drops in my eyes!!  I started to feel eye boogies forming.....it was the damn powder. I got up, brushed my extremely dry hair, tied it up into pigtails and a scarf.  This was ridiculous!!! I couldn't breathe.  It felt like everything around me was covered in baby powder. Geez, I didn't think I put that much on. 

When I woke up this morning, my lovely, perfectly oily, straight hair was gone!! My hair was now dry and terribly frizzy!!! YUCK!!! And I felt like powder was still coming off of my scalp and hair.  No matter how much I brushed it, it wasn't making a difference.

Hello shower.

UGH. So my word of advice.... don't do it, unless you have fine hair and a bristle brush. And half of a palm full of powder is MORE than enough.

Dangit..... now I've gotta straighten it all over again and HOPE it'll look good for tonight. Shucks.

I just fell in love!!!!

As I was searching Bed, Bath & Beyond's website for a juicer, I found this lil gem:

I want this!! I want this more than fresh air!!!  Obviously, I don't want it for the baby feeding reason, but look at it!! Doesn't it look divine!?!!  It's like a body pillow & "big spoon" in one!!!! I NEED THIS!!! 

"GrumpyBear", party of one.

{{texts}}
Houston: How is your morning?
Me: Loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong
Houston: How come?
Me: Someone didn't sleep so well last night, nor did she eat breakfast. "GrumpyBear", party of one.  How are you today? Did you have fun last night?
Houston: Aww. Poor grumpy bear.
...
Me: Honey, I'm sorry, I was feeling grumpy and didn't want to say something mean.
Houston: Are you all better?
Me: Yes I ate lunch and took a nap.
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If there's something I could change about myself, I wish I weren't such a witch when I'm dog tired.  It gets even worse when I'm hungry, as well.  I can tell when it's getting bad, the yawns start.  Followed next by the impatience.  The impatient level is usually my telltale sign that innocent bystanders should seek shelter immediately or move to higher ground.  My family can tell when I'm tired, usually from my eyes, but then my not-so-friendly demeanor starts to rear it's ugly head and it's too late.....
When I'm tired, I try to keep to myself.  I try to stay away from situations that put me in harms way of saying something I'll later regret or treating others unkindly.  I can't hide my feelings and thoughts so well, sometimes.  It's a blessing and a curse that I'm so open with my thoughts and feelings.  I'm grateful for family and friends who still love me, in spite of this.

Guess who gets to find out a lil more about this tonight.......

Tuesday = SLEEPY!

Man, I am SLEEEEEEEEEPY!!! It doesn't help that I went to sleep at 11pm, then woke up at 2:45am....only to stay WIDE awake until 6am.  I fell back asleep until 10am.  Seriously, I tried just about everything but I was SO WIDE awake! It was terrible!  I couldn't fall asleep to save my life!  


Darn it.


Now I want to go back to bed, but I've got stuff I need to do.......


Hello diet Coke, my new best friend for the day.


:-/

Today's homework partner:

I got about 5 hours of sleep this morning.  And now I'm TERRIBLY SLEEPY with an hour of homework ahead of me.  I just got off the phone with my class partner.  I had to hang up with him because I could feel my 'shortness' coming on and my patience QUICKLY depleting.  I'm the worst grouch when I'm sleepy. I have no patient and filter on my mouth.  I'm basically a b!tch.  It's not my most favorite trait, but when I feel it coming on I HAVE to get away from people. I'm like the Hulk...it's not a pretty sight.  Then I end up feeling horrible afterwards.  UGH!!

SO. DANG. TIRED.

Oh man, my body is begging me to go to sleep.  I got about 4 hours of sleep last night.  But it was in 2 hour intervals.  With a terribly throbbing toothache as an intermission.  Toothaches & earaches are the WORST!!!!  Those will always bring you to your knees in pain!! 


Institute lunch went very well!! I'm so glad that everyone liked the Saimin and Pani popo.  I couldn't have been more grateful for kind friends and the opportunity to serve them. 


Well, I'm extremely tired.  I have a new found appreciation for Mama McK and all the meals she makes for Institute.  That woman is amazing and heaven sent. I couldn't be anymore grateful to have her as a dear friend and second Mom.  


Good night.