A July Quickie....

*Oh I love me some wedding blogs: http://ohdarlingwedding.blogspot.com/

*My Meniere's has been kicking my arse more than ever.  Seriously, it sucks.  My head feels like it's in a constant tailspin. I feel like I have to be constantly moving, to fight against the Vertigo that sets in.  I'm sure to those around me, it looks like I can't sit still.  If I try to sit still I feel like I'm gonna fall out of my seat.  Stupid Meniere's Disease!

*My nephew Bub has been here for the last week and it's been so wonderful having him around.  I've become so accustomed to him not living here, which is a good thing because I tend to hold on too tightly to my nephews & niece.  What can I say, I love them so much!  Bub leaves for his TWO YEAR mission in about a month.  Man, I'm not ready to not having him a phone call away.  

*My niece returned back to school this week.  Time flies by so quickly!  I like when kids are out for the summer because I feel like they're able to just be kids and carefree.  Sometimes I think the world asks them to grow up too quickly.  

*My calling at church has been getting better.  I'm the Family Home Evening Committee Chair (I think that's a stupid name since I'm obviously not the "Chairman".....can't I just be the "FHE Prez" or the "FHE Mama"?) and I've finally added to my committee.  I finally got smart and added some friends to the committee, which makes a difference.  Sometimes the call feels a lil daunting since I still don't know the ward as much as I'd like to.  I just want everyone to come out to FHE and have a great time.  

*I don't know if much has improved since laaaaaaast Saturday.  Sometimes, I want to go out of my way to help my Dad with a particular task, but then I don't want to become a doormat later.  I was talking with my Mom today, but I made sure not to say too much.  I've always wished I had the type of Mother/Daughter relationship that I could openly talk and share my thoughts & feelings with.  Sadly, I don't and I need to be on guard of the things I share with my parents because it'd be like giving them ammo for later.  When I was dating & later broke it off with Morgan, I thought I could share lil things with my Mom....you know, how most Mom & daughters talk.  It didn't matter because she ended up using it against me in an argument.  I've learned a lot from my parents, both good and bad.  My heart will forever long to have a ideal relationship with my parents. I don't think this will ever happen. If ever I'm blessed with the opportunity to be a parent, I hope my kids will trust me enough to talk and share their lives with me.  I hope they'll know how much I'll love them, by word and deed.  

*I started to talk to Logan again, thinking we could try to be friends....  He's TOO hung up on the fact that I'm Mormon.  He continually compares me to the Mormons he knew up in Utah.  It's like I have to prove to him that I'm not like that, nor am I your typical Mormon.  He thinks I know nothing about the Catholic religion, that ALL my time is spent on church stuff, that ALL my friends are Mormons and basically I have no life outside of church.  I just couldn't do it anymore. I hate when I have to prove myself on anything, it means that someone's not believing me....as if I'm lying.  Grrr!!  So yet again, I've said good bye to Logan. This time it's for good.  GRRR MEN!

*Oh speaking of which... I didn't go to Pride.  My Meniere's was a huge factor in it.  I just couldn't handle the dizzy head and didn't want the lack of sleep and extreme sun to add to it.  I'm kinda bummed, but there's always next year.  

A lil Monday madness....

"Love is really nothing but a dream that keeps waking me...."

I just burnt my thumb on the steam from my lunch. It hurts A LOT!!!

I can't stand dealing with my own injuries. I become a BIG wuss, but I don't like showing that side of weakness to others....but at the same time it KILLS me to deal with my own injures!! After burning my thumb I wanted to call Morgan (he's a nurse). But I won't because he's at work....10 miles away. What could he really do for me over the phone?? My hand really hurts :( It's bad enough that I already have a cut on the same hand--what the heck!! But I'm happy I'll get to see Morgan this week :)

"....Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me,
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believed
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me."
-"Edge of Desire", John Mayer

Holly Holidays......

Chinese New Years/Valentine's Day weekend....

...starting Thursday night: All I've gotta say is that it was one of the best nights I've had for almost 2 years. HOT!!!!! Enough said....

Friday night: The ward Vday party was nice. I got to slow dance with my Dad and I loved it. I looked FABULOUS in my pretty yellow dress. The evening didn't end the way I would have wanted, thank goodness for BFF's :)

Saturday: My Young Women won one of their Volleyball games. I'm so proud of their progress. They're doing a fantastic job!! Afterwards I spent the afternoon with some good friends and their 4 kids. Oh I love them so much and have missed seeing them in my ward/church since they moved. Went shopping with my BFF that evening....so much fun!

Sunday: Two of my Tongan aunts came to visit my Dad and it was a very lovely visit. We sang a couple Tongan hymns that I love dearly. It was so wonderful. Morgan and I went to the Mormon Battalion Center with my BFF and her husband. For Valentine's Day Morgan gave me a gift card to California Pizza Kitchen, red velvet cake from CPK and also baked me a red velvet cake....as well as lots of chocolate! It was nice.

Monday: The BFF and I went shopping, out to CPK for lunch and just hung out talking. I love girl talk. It was terrific....and I bought size 18 pants!!!!! OH HELL YEAH!!! I'm so freakin' ecstatic!!! A couple months ago I was pushing size 26....so it's freakin' AWESOME that I'm fitting into all my post-mission clothes again!! I.LOVE.IT!!!

And that, ladies and gentlemen, was my weekend! :) Oh I love Thursdays!

Lovely little weekends ♥

Where to start.....

On Saturday my Young Women's won their 2 Volleyball games!! I was so ecstatic for them!! After their game, my best friend Bugs had a baby shower for her sister. It was a very lovely afternoon. It was nice to spend time with the ladies. Enjoyable for sure! That evening I went out with Morgan. It was spectacular!!! Wet and very fun!!!

It was raining when we showed up to Miguel's. I jokingly told him that we should sit out on their patio. When the hostess offered us the option of the patio, we thought she was kidding. It was covered and had heat lamps so we figured it'd be okay. When our food arrived, the rain started to DUMP!! The water rolled off the patio roof and looked like a lil waterfall....It reminded Morgan of the Rainforest Cafe. I looked up from eating and said, "We're pretty lucky to be sitting far under this patio! We'll definitely stay dry". I no sooner said, 'dry' the patio roof started leaking on me and my plate!!!! I jumped up in shock and pushed my plate across the table, next to Morgan. We both were so shocked and seriously could have died of laughter!! I loved it! Afterwards we went to Golden Spoon and later walked around Borders Bookstore.

While we were strolling around Borders, John Mayer's new song, "Edge of Desire" was playing in the background. I don't even know how to truly describe what I was feeling. I started to think to myself that I definitely wanted something more with this man.

Sunday evening, we went to the Mormon Battalion Center again. All the movies and tours were in Spanish when we arrived. I told him we could go through (he speaks Spanish) and I would be fine. We ended up sitting in the lobby just talking for an hour and I was just fine with that. I love spending time with him, it's always so perfectly enjoyable. When we were done with the center, we went out to his car where he brought us some hot cocoa (thoughtful, right?!?) And we talked for another hour or two. I finally asked him the question that was pressing on my mind...and thus began the DTR talk.

It was good! Really good....(he even called me 'beautiful')

...and I got to see him Monday evening as we went shopping at an Asian market. So much fun! I'll be seeing him Friday night at the ward (church) Valentine's day party. I can't wait!!

Oh Morgan... I like you so!

Hi Thursday, I love you!

Last night was soooooooooooooo wonderful!! I had such a great time with Morgan!! We walked around the ferry landing for a while (just like the picture-but it was night time) and talked A LOT. For some reason, I ALWAYS get extremely nervous right before I see him!! But once I'm with him for 5 seconds, I'm completely comfortable....I love that feeling. It was a verrrrrrrrry lovely evening. It was tremendously nice getting to know more about him and some of his thoughts about life. I can't wait to see him again......which will be Saturday evening. I'm so looking forward to next weekend!!

((Quick funny story... Last night while he was finishing up his meal, I ducked into the restroom to wash my hands. When I came back to the table, we finished our drinks and chit chatted for a few minutes. After which I asked him if the server had brought the check already. He nodded. I had promised him the last time we went out, that I'd pay the next time we ate out. I felt HORRIBLE!!! I didn't want him to think I went to the restroom because the check came. I thought I had enough time between him finishing up and before the check came!! We laughed about it and his "George Costanza" reference. I still felt terrible! I even pulled out my credit card from my pocket to show him!! Oh well.... I'll make it up to him on Saturday when we go to Miguel's!))

"I enjoy long walks on the beach, candlelit dinners....."

Tonight Morgan and I are going walking down at the Coronado Ferry Landing. It's one of my FAVORITE places in San Diego. I love the ferry landing, it's so beautiful since it's on the bay and looks across to the San Diego skyline.

I don't know how or why I get nervous right before I see him. I mean, once I'm with him all those butterflies are nonexistent! I thorougly enjoy being with him. We have fun, and I like that a lot. After our walk, we'll probably go grab a bite to eat. I'm thinkin' Miguel's.... but we'll see.

Can I also say, I'm so stoked for Feb.14 this year. Normally, I wouldn't really care--but two holidays on one day!! I LOVE IT!! (Valentine's Day & Chinese New Years!!!) Chinese New Year's is one of my favorite holiday (I also love 4th of July). I can't wait.... I wonder what I'll be doing to celebrate the day!? Hmm, we'll see!!

Oh Monday, dont' take it personally....

...but I really don't like you. UGH Mondays!!

*Well Friday was a lil choatic. Wasn't a typical work day, just VERY VERY QUIET. I was able to get all my work done with a quickness. Luckily, Mamacita and I were able to resolve our problem. It all started because another co-worker "thought" she heard something and told Mamacita that I was "talking crap". Yes, someone decided to 'react' instead of 'act' to that gossip, but I'm just glad everything's cleared up between Mamacita and I. I would NEVER do anything to ruin our great work relationship and wonderful friendship.

*My Young Women's Volleyball team did quite well. I'm very proud of them. For their first game, they played great together. I'm sure some of them were a lil nervous and forgot the basics, but all in all they should be very happy with the way the played. They won 1 set out of 3 and that's okay with me.......for now.

* I didn't go out with Morgan on Saturday (like we've been doing for the last month)....but we ended up going out on Sunday. We hit up the newly remodeled Mormon Battalion Center in Old Town San Diego. OH.MY.GOSH!! It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! I think it's a definite MUST SEE!!! I love it!! I can't wait to go again!! They've transformed it into a beautiful 'hacienda'!! It's so unreal!! It's hard to believe it's a church structure, I LOVE IT!!

* Sitting in class with Morgan made me miss going out with him on Saturday. So I was really glad when he asked me out to the Mormon Battalion center. I had such a lovely time with him. I always thoroughly enjoy going out with him. I'm so stoked that we're going out on Wednesday! We'll be walking around the Coronado Ferry Landing and then grabbing a bite to eat. I'm so happy I get to see him mid-week!!

*I'm in the mood for some Bañuelos...ORALE!!

Mandarins/Mandarines

Yesterday....

I went out with Morgan, my best friend Bugs and her husbie. It was so fun!! We went bowling (I came in second place to Morgan, in bowling) and then out for pizza. I had Anchovies for the first AND LAST TIME during dinner. It's ok, just tastes like extremely salty fish. Nothing flattering about that.

I thoroughly enjoying going out with Morgan. I feel comfortable with him, I could probably tell him just about anything and he'd be okay with it. I don't think there's really anything that would shock him. I love the way he listens and responds accordingly. Oh trust me, that's a big deal when you've dealt with guys that MAYBE listening to what you're saying and then start on a WHOLE different topic without acknowledging what you even said!!! That is SO DANG ANNOYING!!! Morgan has a heart of gold and I sincerely appreciate it.

And then my day got better!!...

I came home and thought I'd try on some of my old clothes that haven't fit for a while--like 4 years ago 'while'. OH.MY.GOSH!! Can I just say that nothing feels better than losing weight and fitting into old clothes!! 4-6 dress sizes in a matter of months! My FAVORITE red shirt fits again and makes my boobs look amazing--Sorry, TMI? And my most favorite dress ever fits again!! It's a white temple dress I bought about 3.5 years ago and wore a couple times--the last time being in the Laie Hawaii temple. It's such an exquiste cut and I feel truly beautiful in it. If I could, I would even get married in it! I LOVE IT A LOT!! I could have cried last night when it slipped perfectly over my head, shoulders and hips. I CANNOT wait to get to the temple!!! I just have to wear it somewhere, soon!!! So I guess you could say this is a little blessing in disguise of having Meniere's disease.

Oh.....I can't wait to see Morgan again :)

F.R.I.D.A.Y.!!!

* * * 5 F A V E S f o r F R I D A Y ! ! ! * * *

1. BFF's/Girlfriends: They are seriously the best! There's something endearing about female friendships. I was texting a friend this morning about a date she has tonight. I became so excited for her date and couldn't wait to hear the details of it. I told her to text/call me after her date tonight....but the part I enjoy is the fact that we can call each other ANY time of day or night. There's not a time limit as to when we can or can't call. I love having that with my closest girlfriends....knowing I can call at midnight after a date just to dish details--so much fun!!

2. Enjoying the rain, indoors: I love listening to the rain as it falls. There's something so relaxing and refreshing about it. After a rain fall, I love opening up the windows and just taking in the earth's aroma after it's been cleansed. So yummy!

3. My king-size Down Comforter: Five years ago, when I moved to Utah my very best friend StephyPooh gave me a Tempur-Pedic pillow (cause I LOVED her's from the mission) and a beloved yellow king-size Down Comforter-as a "Welcome to Utah!!" gift. Oh you have no idea how much I TRULY LOVE it!! When winter rolls around, I become so excited that I get to pull it out and use it!!! It's ubersoft and oh so cozy!!! I'm always reminded of her love and friendship when I use it. It's GREAT!!!

4.Supermint Extra Gum:

I happend to come across this when

the gas station didn't have my typical Polar Ice gum. Ever since then, I've been in love!! I LOVE this gum!! It is so dang delicious!! Makes my breath fresh in 2.2 seconds!!! The flavor lasts FOREVER!!! If you haven't tried this yet, you HAVE to!! TODAY!! LIKE RIGHT NOW!!!! (You can thank me later!)

5. Morgan: He's such a wonderful & SWEET guy!! I'm so truly grateful to get to know him again. He has a heart of gold!! He's like my BFF Bugs, but just in male form. It's easy being myself with him and he doesn't freak out by my lil crazy/funnny antics. Plus he listens AND responds accordingly (how many guys really do that?) I seriously can't wait til tomorrow! :)

Saturday is a special day...

WOW!! Yesterday I had such a dang TERRRRRRRIFIC day!!! An ENTIRE TERRIFIC day!!! It was so FUN!!

On Friday evening I went to Morgan's house to pick up some pants (3 bags full!) he wanted to give my nephews. We sat and talked for about a half hour [My BFF was in the car-sorry Bugs!]. I was nervous as I walked up to his door, but as soon as we sat down all that disappeared. It's so easy to talk to him. I feel so comfortable around him. He asked me what my plans were for the weekend and I told him I had none since I was suppose to go out of town to visit relatives. He asked if he could take me to the movies and then go to the Saturday evening adult session of stake conference. I later called him that night to say that I didn't want to go to the movies but wanted to go eat waffles instead! (It's hard to get to know someone while watching a movie in a theatre). He was game!

Saturday morning-ish he picked me up and we headed to a waffle house by the Sports Arena [SO DANG DELICIOUS!] and then he had 2 errands to run (the mall & Fry's Electronic store) No biggie, he's very nice company....it's very comfortable to be around him. Afterwards he asked me if I had any errands to run or if I wanted to go anywhere. I told him "Balboa Park", but I can go there anytime, So I changed my mind to "The Old Point Loma Lighthouse & Cabrillo National monument". We walked around and ended up sitting on this wall which over looks San Diego bay, Coronado, the airport and basically all of San Diego. It was SO BREATHTAKINGLY BEAUTIFUL!!!!! I was completely mesmerized by the view. We sat and talked for a couple hours and the weather was totally agreeable. We walked down to Senor Cabrillo to see his monument and then left. Talking to Morgan is easy and enjoyable, he makes me laugh and I think I do the same for him as well. He took me back to the Sports Arena area and we ate at this cool lil dive. They serve spaghetti sandwiches in this hollowed out roll (so it doesn't spill out the sides) but I had the lasagna sandwich. Even though it was 5 hours since breakfast I was STILL SO FULL!! I ate half of my 6 inch sandwich and he was asking me what I like for dessert and what my favorite ice cream is. So then he took me to Mission Valley for Maggie Moo's cremery ice cream. It was DAAAAANG good!!! Afterwards we strolled along the store fronts, two of which were furniture stores. We commented on different pieces and what we liked for a bedroom. It didn't feel weird that we were talking about what we wanted in a bed. He drove me home and we ended the evening.

I haven't had a day like that since...well, maybe ever! It was nice to not have to think, or be nervous... I felt completely comfortable with him and I enjoyed every second of it! This weekend has been totally awesome!! Now I know why people dread Mondays! :)

Tuesday meet Randi...

-Sleep is a VERY good thing, sometimes. I went home after work and slept for a couple hours, got up and fell back asleep an hour later til this morning. I had a lot on my mind so it was nice to not have to think of ANYTHING!

-Can I just say, I hate dealing with student loans. SO.DANG.FRUSTRATING!!!

-I get to coach the Young Women's Volleyball again tonight. I seriously love it! I miss my ol' YW from a couple years ago, but I think this set of YW have a lot of potential. They're all friendly and willing to learn, it's great! It's a very nice (and very welcomed) distraction right now.

-So Atticus...WEIRD, VERY FREAKIN WEIRD!! I don't know if he's telling the truth half of the time or not. I really cannot stand that. I seriously loathe dishonesty. I will not tolerate it, not even in the least bit.

-I went to see Avatar with Bugs, her husband and Morgan. I was surprised that I liked it! It was trippy, but kinda felt long towards the end.

-Hmm, I've only used my Cricut twice since receiving it. I just haven't been in the mood to scrapbook since it came. Maybe later this week. But I do want a bread machine now. I think it'd be great to wake up each morning to fresh bread!

T as in Tom...and Thursday!

I like this------------>

It makes me happy.

After a VERY CRAPPY MRI experience I skipped out on my doctor's appointments today (I at least called to reschdule--so I'm not that irresponsible) and played around with my new Cricut Expression. OH I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! SO MUCH FUN!!!! I had never used one or seen one in real life (Thanks Google) so watching it for the first time REALLY BLEW ME AWAY!! I can't wait to start scrapbooking my mission.

Oh Atticus, Atticus...this man is so funny yet difficult to easily read (a lawyer's mysterious allure?). He definitely makes work a lot less like "work" and he told me that he missed me in the office this morning. Oh the heartstrings are being pulled as we speak...

I'll be going out with my BFF, her husband and Morgan this Saturday. We're going to see Avatar. A lil nervous...not too sure why.

Sunday night ramblings...

*After 3 full days off, I don't want to go to work tomorrow...even if I do get to see Atticus. I feel like I've been on vacation. Speaking of which, I need a vacation. And I need to go visit my uncle who hasn't been doing so well. Plus I need some Pie. Hmm...Utah?

*I had the GREATEST Sunday nap today! Oh I LOVED it so!

*I got to see some great friends today. I seriously love the Cates family! And it was nice to see their brother in law Stanton (and the side of Rubi's face). I feel like my real life/blogging friends really do exist off of blogspot. It was nice.

*Last night's hangout/date/'whatever the heck it's called' with Morgan was fun. I enjoyed his company and the conversation was very pleasant. We had a lot to talk about and thankfully the conversation never died. We ended up watching "Sherlock Holmes" which was PERFECTLY fine with me, I wasn't too excited to watch "Avatar", yet. We'll see. Anywhoo....Morgan is truly an exceptional gentleman. Seriously, 'Chivalry' is his middle name, I forgot how WONDERFUL that is. However...it was a lil awkward when his Mom came up to me in church today. She greeted me with the BIGGEST hug and kiss EVER (I think it was bigger than when my Mom greeted me at the airport after my mission). Morgan's Mom was so thrilled to hear about last night, I think she could seriously start planning a wedding. I'm sure she means well...

*I was looking at my cousin's photos of their Disneyland trip on Christmas. I'M SO JEALOUS!!! I WANT TO GO TO DISNEYLAND!! Seriously, since my birthday I cannot stop thinking of how and when I'll get back! What the heck, I feel like this is crazy talk...but seriously, SO MUCH FUN!! AAHHHHHH!!!!

*I'll be going on 'hold' with the Temple for a month. This Meniere's crap is really kicking my trash. The break will be good, I'm looking foward to it. I think on one of my weekend's off I'm gonna try to make it up to Utah. My uncle hasn't been doing well and the doctors aren't giving him very long. It'll be nice to see him and all my cousins. I miss them, they're like my family away from home. I can't wait.

*My CRICUT EXPRESSION will be here this week!!! I SERIOUSLY CANNOT WAIT!!

I've been reading & watching everything I can on it because once I open that box, I'll be going to town baby!! FINALLY my scrapbooks are gonna look AWESOME!!! Will I leave the house? Probably just for scrapping supplies, but that's about it!!

*We got to talk to my missionary nephew on Christmas eve (Actually Christmas day in Fiji). Oh man, it was fantastic!! He sounded so stoked to be out doing the Lord's work. He was in the hospital for 5 days due to an intestine infection--NO BUENO!! He was excited to be out tracting the last couple of days. He'll be transfered to the capital (Suva) so he can be closer to medical care and the mission home. He's sad for the transfer but you could hardly tell in his voice. He's such a spectacular missionary! I love and miss him so much!! HURRAH FOR ISRAEL!

Thinking, thinking, thinking....

So Atticus... Still a really nice, intelligent and handsome guy, but... I think I may not be feeling 'it' anymore. I got to know him a lot more this past Saturday evening, but what I found out, I'm not really a fan of. I don't know.............we'll see. Thank goodness I still have Mr.NY to make work so much more worthwhile.

And I'll be going out with a friend this Saturday. He's EXTREMELY nice, like 'caring' nice. The funny part is, is that I use to have a crush on him when I was 10 years old. Morgan's a little bit older than me but we're just hanging out and going to the movies. We're gonna see "Avatar", wasn't planning on ever watchng this...so I'll just hope for the best.

I'm stoked for tomorrow night! My missionary nephew will be calling home from Fiji. He's been in the hospital for a lower intestine infection, so it'll be really good to hear his voice and feel his spirit. I love my nephews all so much....and my niece too. She and I will be going to see Disney's Christmas Carol tonight. Sometimes I forget how AWESOME they are until I see them around non-relatives. They're funny, well mannered and well rounded kids. They're not shy and can actually have conversations with adults. I have been blessed beyond measure to have them in my life. I love being their aunt.